Hum, okay...

So, I've participated at this stupid party, had a couple of drinks and wrote some more with my lovely. She had to go now, because her sister came home and wanted to use to computer. Now I'm basically just bored. Guess I'm gonna write the scenes that I need to do and listen to some more music. I won't get depressed. No, I won't. Just having a bad time here, is all. I wish this fucking PMS was done with at last! Gawds!

Holy Smokes!

Word is showing off on me! Gawdammit! Tell me that the copy of the document I want to work on right now currently is used by another user, me. Well, I knew I had this split personality thing, but this is taking it a bit too far, don't you think? Guess, usually I would have gotten nervous now, thinking someone was hacking into my computer or crap. But since I wasn't even online at this time, this can hardly be, eh?

*pouts and works on copy of her file*

I don't know what to do with myself...

Yeah... that pretty much sums it up right now I guess.

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As of tomorrow, my flatrate will be history... God... I'm gonna miss it.

Zetsuai Bronze - Book 3, p. 182

Kore ijou no mono wa dekinai to omotte iru yo itsumo.
Kono omoi no subete o anata he...

"Every time, I think I won't be able to do anything as good ever again.
I want to give this feeling to you..."

I'm so worried...

My parents have this talk outside on the terrasse and when I came outside to cuddle the cat, they sent me back in. They never did that before... it's something serious... I'm so worried...

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Still worried. Won't be meeting my deadline. Still depressed. Life sucks.

Sometimes I wonder...

... why I keep going on at all. I just don't see an aim most of the time. I'm not happy. I want to leave. Far away. I finally want to study what I want to. I don't know where I'll end up like that. I'll end up in some stupid office, slaving away, hating my life and suiciding. I've only made mistakes, from beginning to end. I never should have started studying. It was all a mistake...

I will never be able to study in the States. I just can't afford it. There is no fucking way...