Sometimes...

[silversolitaire]

It saddens me when I see how quickly love can go. How I look at people now that I used to love and feel a deep friendship for just months ago and now I just feel nothing. I don't care what they do and I don't even feel much need to keep any contact. It's kinda strange. What is there left that's real and durable when you can tell "I love you" to someone and weeks later you don't even care whether they live or die? I think nothing means anything anymore. Every "I love you" I uttered was meant and honest, but I know that it can fade away just as quickly.

I guess the real kind of love is the one that grows on you, quietly, and you don't even notice at first. You just enjoy this person's company and suddenly realize that without them, it's all a little more grey and bleak. The real kind of love doesn't need wordy confessions and daily affirmation. It doesn't need to be cutesified and proudly displayed. It's just there and the knowledge of it makes you happy. And it makes you sad. And both is perfect.

Comments

[ex-jessibean471.livejournal.com]

i know how you feel.. especially with a certain someone (you know). Its just amazing how you can feel for someone so strongly only to have it disapear, ne? And the thing is, it always makes me nervous about other relationships. "Is it okay to tell this friend I love her, because I do, or is it going to go away as well?" ..know what I mean?> bleh. Sometimes it sucks.

[nortylak.livejournal.com]

I know how you mean.

About being scared to say anything again because you're so afraid that if you messed up once (or even if no one messed up + the friendship faded on its own), it could happen again.

And I say yes, it is definitely okay to tell a friend that you love him or her even if it's hurt you in the past. Because people are different and react different ways. And you can't let a lost friendship ruin the ones you might have in the future.

It took me a long, long time to realize that.

I'm sorry to hear about your friend.

[silversolitaire.livejournal.com]

Yeah I know what you mean... I feel the same... *hugs*