Sometimes...

[silversolitaire]

It saddens me when I see how quickly love can go. How I look at people now that I used to love and feel a deep friendship for just months ago and now I just feel nothing. I don't care what they do and I don't even feel much need to keep any contact. It's kinda strange. What is there left that's real and durable when you can tell "I love you" to someone and weeks later you don't even care whether they live or die? I think nothing means anything anymore. Every "I love you" I uttered was meant and honest, but I know that it can fade away just as quickly.

I guess the real kind of love is the one that grows on you, quietly, and you don't even notice at first. You just enjoy this person's company and suddenly realize that without them, it's all a little more grey and bleak. The real kind of love doesn't need wordy confessions and daily affirmation. It doesn't need to be cutesified and proudly displayed. It's just there and the knowledge of it makes you happy. And it makes you sad. And both is perfect.

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[ex-jessibean471.livejournal.com]

i know how you feel.. especially with a certain someone (you know). Its just amazing how you can feel for someone so strongly only to have it disapear, ne? And the thing is, it always makes me nervous about other relationships. "Is it okay to tell this friend I love her, because I do, or is it going to go away as well?" ..know what I mean?> bleh. Sometimes it sucks.

[fleurrochard]

I guess the real kind of love is the one that grows on you, quietly, and you don't even notice at first. You just enjoy this person's company and suddenly realize that without them, it's all a little more grey and bleak. The real kind of love doesn't need wordy confessions and daily affirmation. It doesn't need to be cutesified and proudly displayed. It's just there and the knowledge of it makes you happy. And it makes you sad. And both is perfect.

*nods* You're right and I know that. I know that with you. *smiles*
I know that this love doesn't need to be "proudly displayed" - but sometimes I just want to tell the world that I do love my best friend. And that's hte reason why I do this sometimes - not to reassure me or you, but because I am suddenly so full of love that it has to be said.

/me in sappy mood. ^_^

*hugs*

[kmazzy.livejournal.com]

oh silver i so know what you mean and it's happening to me right now....
i think i'm at a point where i could lose a friend forever. and that's bad, but the feeling's just not there like it used to be... and then i feel guilty because they love me, but i just feel, well, kinda apathetic....

oh it's so bad....

how can it all have disappeared so quickly?

[nortylak.livejournal.com]

I know how you mean.

About being scared to say anything again because you're so afraid that if you messed up once (or even if no one messed up + the friendship faded on its own), it could happen again.

And I say yes, it is definitely okay to tell a friend that you love him or her even if it's hurt you in the past. Because people are different and react different ways. And you can't let a lost friendship ruin the ones you might have in the future.

It took me a long, long time to realize that.

I'm sorry to hear about your friend.

[nortylak.livejournal.com]

Every "I love you" I uttered was meant and honest.

I just want you to know that mine were as well. Every single one.

And you're so right about love. It doesn't need to be flaunted or painted in big bright letters across the sky for it to be real. It just is.

And while this might seem very inappropriate, I still love you, Silv. I care very much whether you live or die. You will always have a place in my heart.

[crotalus-atrox.livejournal.com]

Every "I love you" I uttered was meant and honest, but I know that it can fade away just as quickly.

Been there. I, too, meant every "I love you" at the time, and so when I didn't feel it, I stopped saying it. Got yelled at and the friendship quickly faded, and now I just don't care. But hey, I'm floating on air, and I'm sure they've found someone else now, so the faded "I love you"s aren't bad... just a memory of a different time.

The real kind of love doesn't need wordy confessions and daily affirmation. It doesn't need to be cutesified and proudly displayed.

I agree with this, in semantics, but not meaning. It doesn't *need* to be... but certain people/ personalities like to do it. Not out of need, really, just out of love so full that you want to make it public. (for me, anyway) I tend to randomly announce my love for Av, and she announces hers for me. It's not done out of flaunting or anything, we do it because it's this constant feeling inside, inseperable from our personas now. Neither of us NEEDS to make it public, but we do it out of an odd form of selfishness. Av found a passage that describes it somewhere in her journal... we want everyone to be as happy as we are. it's selfish, but in a way, by letting everyone know that love like that can exist, does exist, and is utterly satisfying, we sorta hope everyone finds a love like ours.

Love has different ways of expressing itself. :) I like seeing other people show their love, because no pair of best friends does it the same way. It'd be an awfully boring world if they did...

It's just there and the knowledge of it makes you happy. And it makes you sad. And both is perfect.

::claps:: That's perfect. I love it. I am happy that you can feel that. ^_^ And your lucky friend, I am sure, feels that too. ^_^ Love is grand. Kudos for finding someone who fills you with love. Love like that can never be a bad thing.

[silversolitaire.livejournal.com]

I don't like faded "I love you's". They falsify everything I could possibly feel for someone new. It takes me a lot to say "I love you" and I want it to last. Realizing that it doesn't, scares me. I always grew to hate the people I used to love and no longer can. It's something that scares me about myself. I don't see the reason for that.

On the other hand, it's good to stop an "I love you" when it stops feeling real.

I never had you in mind when I wrote this. So don't get me wrong. If that works for you, that's nice. On the other hand, you can't make other people as happy as you are. It can have quite the opposite effect, actually. That just as a side note. But if this is your thing, it's just fine and I'd be the last person so judge you on that.

I just realized now that "I love you" doesn't really mean anything. I love a lot of people. But the real kind of love... is not expressed. At least for me. It's just there...

I hate things that don't last. And things that last forever. I hate them both... And I don't make sense, but it doesn't matter. I live with the knowledge that when I go from this world, most people won't even know how much I loved them. But it seems like the right thing.

[crotalus-atrox.livejournal.com]

I never had you in mind when I wrote this. So don't get me wrong.
::smile:: I would never presume you did. ::blush:: I don't think I'm that important as to warrant being singled out.

If that works for you, that's nice. On the other hand, you can't make other people as happy as you are. It can have quite the opposite effect, actually. That just as a side note.

I wish I could, at that, but that's the eternal idealist in me. I recognize I can't help everyone find their perfect match, much as I wish I could. I sincerely hope no one has been hurt by my openness :(, but if they have, well, I'm not a golden coin. :) I can't please everyone all the time, and I don't try to. I just try to remain true to myself. ^_^

But if this is your thing, it's just fine and I'd be the last person so judge you on that. Thank you! I do appreciate that, can you believe a lot of v. shallow people do? Ach, oh, well. :) I am glad you're not one of them.

Once more, I'd like to state how happy I am for you and your best. ^_^

[silversolitaire.livejournal.com]

I know! *huggles* And that's nice to know, too. This was just a general notion. Like, my love isn't less meaningful just because I don't parade it.

[silversolitaire.livejournal.com]

Yeah I know what you mean... I feel the same... *hugs*

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[fleurrochard]

Of course it isn't less meaningful, I would have never thought so!
*eyes sentence suspiciously* I'm not so sure about the grammar here, but I think you know what I mean.
Anyway, sudden outburst of love and public displays of it are simply in my character - my family knows my sudden hug-attacks... ^_~