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So, there it is. My very first entry of my very first online diary. I still can't believe I'm doing this and I still don't think I'll keep up with it. But right now I'm in an experimenting mood, so let's see what'll come from it...

I wonder why. Is there some kind of exhibitionist's soul dwelling inside me that I'm doing this? Who would be interested in this anyway and why? Well. time will show.

For now, the only excuse for this entry is testing, if it works.

Good enough for me...

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Now I've customized my journal. I'm still not completely content with it, but it will all come sooner or later. I wish I could create a style that was a bit more extraordinary, but then you have to pay, I guess. Too bad.

I just realized that my girlfriend isn't talking to me anymore. Wow... Took me two days to realize that. Now what to do? Write her an eMail, or wait? I'll wait...

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Success indeed! My info is growing and growing. It's spooky actually, when you follow a link in your info of something you like and you get a list of... maybe 20 hits and you just pick one and read the info there and you find so many things what you like, too. Can people be so much alike? I'm not even sure I like that. I've always been the salmon, the one to go against the stream...

I quote Alex from Shallow Grave: "Now that's important to me. I need to die misunderstood."

Oh yes... Creating a personality is far too exhausting to have people understand it.

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I somehow forgot to state my mood.

So, here it is! Voilá! What a revelation! ^_~

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Okaaaay... another test, to see if I can change the fonts, too: *ehem*

TEST

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YEIH!!!!!!

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So, now, ladies and germs, here they are, the most dreaded... *drum roll* musings on Harry Potter!!!!!

What I really like about Harry Potter is the natural way different types of people are included in the book. No difference is made regarding skin color, nationality, social status and so on. There is prejudice, however, and it makes sense in a way, for the wizarding world. Like the distinction between pure-bloods and mudbloods, made by narrow minded wizards.

But still, it gives me hope. If there is an unbiased society in the wizarding world, so free of hostility in the common sense, maybe they have liberal views about homosexuality as well. When I think about it, completely free from the slash-writing point of view, I can see almost any type of relationship between the characters, straight or gay. That's marvelous to me. And it gives me the hope that J.K. might, as the books mature, include at least one gay character as well. With no issues or anything. Just gay and there, like others in her books are black, poor, overweight, pale, skinny and so on without any kind of judgement. I'd really love that...

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And now: Lunch! *presto*
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Why do people always mess with other people's business? There's nothing more aggravating than a mother in menopause giving you a hard time! I just can't wait to go back to my flat again. I've been with people far too long already. It's time for a bit of seclusion again.

They are ALL getting on my nerves!

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Ah, okay. I've calmed down again. I always feel so bad about making my mother cry. Always? That sounds weird, since the last time she's shown an emotion other than anger must have been at least 5 years ago. I only wish she wouldn't mess with my business all the time.

But I'm always willing to be peaceful again. That's why I cleaned up the living room. Although I'm still a bit angry about her.

These are the situations that make it clear to me. We're no family anymore. Life like that can't go on forever. We have to split up soon or else we will kill each other. I've taken the first step by studying somewhere else and I'll take the second step soon my leaving the country. This is the slow breaking apart of family life, the procedure of growing up and cutting the cord, of maturing and leaving home. Phase I probably was when we stopped going on holiday together many many years ago.

Sometimes this makes me sad. Because I get so lonely. And I get angry. People say that gay people truly can choose their own families. I sure hope it's true...

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Just read this cool quote:

"Eh, everybody makes mistakes. That's why they put erasers on pencils!"

LOL! ^_^

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Okay, I don't really care for company. But it doesn't sound too nice to read "Silver has no friends" when taking a look at the "Friends" section... So, if anybody wants to be my friend, feel free! ^_~

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Wherefore art thou, my princess. I miss thee...

*sighs*

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Oh! I just saw that someone commented on my nice quote below. This is weird. You always somehow live in the belief that this is private. Not that I actually assumed this. It's rather that I never really believed somebody could be interested in this here o_O. And the funny thing is, this comment happened about 2 minutes after I posted it! Funny! Unfortunately this somebody left no name... That would have been interesting to know! ^_~

I hope the next commentator leaves a name. I'm just too damn curious! hehehe

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I'm feeling a bit restless right now. I want to continue writing my fic, but my mind is blank. I wish I had a better idea to get it started. I have so many ideas for the rest, but I can't get started, dammit! I wish my beta would get back to me at last! Somehow this causes the blockage. I shouldn't be so dependent of others.

I'll go looking for my cat now and cuddle a bit. That always releases the strain...

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Oookay! Sherlock was more than helpful. I can always brush my sorrow in his coat. How I love him... Anyway, I decided to post Part I of my story now. I don't care whether it could be improved or not. There's a time when one has to draw the line and release a story. Maybe the reaction of others will make it easier for me to let the juices flow for Part III ^_~.

So, on with it!

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*Silver's now working on the finalest final version of her fic.*

For those interested, sign up at hpslash. Don't know what and where and how? Then you're not a sister. Too bad then .

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*diving up from work*

For no particular reason I just had to think of one of my fave quotes from Melville's Moby-Dick:

"Better sleep with a sober cannibal than a drunken Christian."

^_~

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It is accomplished... *happy sigh*

I just couldn't see this fic anymore. I'm at the point where I really don't care what people think of it. I did my best and if this isn't good enough, well then...

Now I'm bored... *yawns*

*takes out the guitar although she can't play a note*

I'm so lonesome I could cry...

*strum*strum*