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Sep. 29th, 2000 06:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
silversolitaireAh, okay. I've calmed down again. I always feel so bad about making my mother cry. Always? That sounds weird, since the last time she's shown an emotion other than anger must have been at least 5 years ago. I only wish she wouldn't mess with my business all the time.
But I'm always willing to be peaceful again. That's why I cleaned up the living room. Although I'm still a bit angry about her.
These are the situations that make it clear to me. We're no family anymore. Life like that can't go on forever. We have to split up soon or else we will kill each other. I've taken the first step by studying somewhere else and I'll take the second step soon my leaving the country. This is the slow breaking apart of family life, the procedure of growing up and cutting the cord, of maturing and leaving home. Phase I probably was when we stopped going on holiday together many many years ago.
Sometimes this makes me sad. Because I get so lonely. And I get angry. People say that gay people truly can choose their own families. I sure hope it's true...
But I'm always willing to be peaceful again. That's why I cleaned up the living room. Although I'm still a bit angry about her.
These are the situations that make it clear to me. We're no family anymore. Life like that can't go on forever. We have to split up soon or else we will kill each other. I've taken the first step by studying somewhere else and I'll take the second step soon my leaving the country. This is the slow breaking apart of family life, the procedure of growing up and cutting the cord, of maturing and leaving home. Phase I probably was when we stopped going on holiday together many many years ago.
Sometimes this makes me sad. Because I get so lonely. And I get angry. People say that gay people truly can choose their own families. I sure hope it's true...
