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[silversolitaire]

Whenever I talk to my ex-best friend I get so... sad. How we have nothing in common anymore, talk about trivial things when I want to go into depth... I'm a deep person, I want to discuss profound things, but with her it's always just brainless chatter. I can't be myself... at all. That gives me so much pain. And yet I like her. But sometimes she gets me so angry. Like when she's watching Mulan and tells me how depressed she gets from it and I just want to scream at her and say, "You don't have a fucking clue what depression feels like!!!"

Sometimes I just hate my life...

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[kkscatnip.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tightly*

i know exactaly how you feel.

((hugs))

[sandrine]

But look at it this way - at least she is talking to you. And while things seem to be tense between the two of you now, there might still be hope that you can work it out. Of course it's sad when closest friends become almost-strangers, but you might be able to discover new sides at the other one. And maybe, one day you will be best friends again. Doesn't mean it has to happen, but there's a chance.

Maybe I'm too optimistic. But I'm in a similar situation and I have to be optimistic, because otherwise I'd be losing my mind. That friend of mine isn't even talking to me, not reacting to my messages, and I still have hope that things might work out. Unlikely, but I'm not willing to give up.

So, chin up. ((hugs)) I hope you and your friend will be okay again some day in the not-so-far future. :)