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[silversolitaire]

I'm tired of trying to pretend that things are okay. I don't want to mail someone and ask about where my long-promised mail is and slap a fake smiley on it when I don't feel like it. I don't want to pretend like I don't care that I'm being ignored / forgotten for months. I'm hurt and angry. And I hate that I've got a birthday coming up. I can't enjoy it because I feel old and like I've accomplished nothing in my life. I want to be young again. And it fucking sucks that I'm not speaking to the person anymore that I considered my best friend and I still don't know what we fought over and I still miss her like hell.

Everything fucking sucks. I just want to pass out and end this fucking day.

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[kribban.livejournal.com]

You'll get over Fleur. You will learn. *hugs* It's like Dr. Phil says - when you wait around for the other person to make a move, you give them power over your life.