*curls up and cries*

[silversolitaire]

I hate being the way I am sometimes... When my therapist said I was wrapping myself up too much in my fantasy world I didn't want to hear it. I wanted to leave to office and return to the things I liked doing... create stories, thinking about them... I wanted to do all the things she criticized. And it's times like this that I realize she's right. But I can't help it...

Here I am now, utterly depressed because I've just finished watching the episode "The Final Problem" where Sherlock Holmes meets his untimely and deservedly heroic end. Of course I know that a) Sherlock Holmes wasn't a real person, b) I can always reread and rewatch all the cases and it won't really make a difference and most importantly, c) he's not even dead, for crying out loud! He's of course returning!!! But I can't help it! I'm deeply moved and saddened and I just want to cry. And all that because I know that things won't be the same anymore. As much as I have fallen in love with Jeremy Brett as Sherlock Holmes I have taken the same affection to David Burke as Dr. Watson. And knowing that he won't be returning in his role drives me nuts. I liked him so much, his looks, his voice, the way he acted. I can't imagine Hardwicke being even remotely as magnificent. I know I should give him a chance, but hell... it saddens me. It seems to me as if not Sherlock Holmes was dead and to return, but Dr. Watson and irreversible died for me, for he will never be played by David Burke again.

*sighs sadly* I'm such a silly person... I wish I wasn't like that...

Comments

[vampiresetsuna.livejournal.com]

You know, i sometimes think people who arn't fans can't understand being absobed in fandoms... Maybe it is a way of escaping into fantasy, and there RL things we should be addressing instead, but i really can't see how it's that much different from sitting infront of the tv in the evning, or reading a book, or what ever non-fans do. And on the bright side, your brain's actually working when creating stories. =P ::hugs:: I don't think it's silly.