Clarification

[silversolitaire]

I realize I probably hurt a lot of people with my last post. That wasn't my intention. To all of you who do post a lot (Cammy for example, or others), let me explain. I'm in Europe. When I'm awake people never seem to post. I refresh and refresh and nothing ever changes. I know you post copiously, but that's when I'm asleep or somewhere else. And even if you are posting while I'm awake, I wasn't really aiming at you.

I should stop beating around the bush I guess. I'm grateful to all my LJ friends, but most of you are just friends, and not close friends. I can say that safely because I only have a handful of close friends. And those are the ones I'm missing now. With the exception of Tom, Sabby and Lil there are no friends I speak to on a daily basis. Most of them log on once a week, it at all. Others I haven't talked to in weeks, or months even. It saddens me, deeply. Usually I don't feel it that painfully, but right now I'm sad and depressed anyway and then I just keep minding, feeling lonelier and lonelier...

I miss Fleur, for example. I miss Jen. We're talking now, but I've missed her, not talking to her in weeks, it seems. I miss Jess whom I haven't talked to in weeks now I think and who hasn't even said she's done with her term and off to God knows where. Those are just a few. And I miss so many.

This is just a clarification. So you know. I never meant to imply your posts aren't important. I just feel like I'm running in circles.

That is all

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[jessindistress.livejournal.com]

D00d, I'm in Australia- unless I'm doing a sleep-deprivation thing where I'm online at all sorts of crazy hours of the morning, no one's around when I am, too.

((hugs))

~Jess