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Today was positively horrible. And what's even worse, it's far from over x_x. I couldn't sleep... again. I woke up way too early. I was freezing my ass off because the heater is still on winter time. I caught one train earlier, so I'd have enough time to look for the classroom of my new class! Yay! But there were "technical difficulties" and the train stopped 10 mins. at every station. Not so yay... Arrived right on time, which wasn't enough since I had no clue where the class was. Ran up and down the stairs twice before I found it. Sneaked in illegally since I wasn't registered and was already very rudely yelled at by the secretary for even asking. Since the class had been rescheduled to 9 AM instead of 10 AM, it looked really good at first. But then people started filling the room until it soon was PACKED and it was really uncomfy just to sit there. I felt really really bad. But I also felt really desperate because I WANT to be in this Creative Writing class conducted by Rich, now more than ever. But I was just getting more and more depressed just sitting there, invaded by at least 45 people, feeling like an alien and unwanted... After class I talked to Rich again who said he really wanted me in there because he knows I have potential (I've already done that river story for him last term), but he's only a guest professor and he can't decide it. When I assured him that I absolutely will not get back to that secretary he said he'll just neglect to mention me on his notes and I can just sit in there and learn (since I don't need the credits). By the time I was already so depressed that I didn't really feel happy about it. Also, I felt kinda stupid because two of the other "illegals" had rushed down to the secretary's office and asked if they could be admitted and for some unknown reason she admitted THOSE TWO, but not all the others who mailed her and she could be rude to. So, made me feel stupid, because I could have been legal if I had just taken the effort to ask, but I was just to terrified at the thought of facing her again. Just the though of having to pick up my papers at her office makes me sick... I'm such a sizzy...

Now it's not even noon... oh wait, now it is. I'm sitting in the exiled office, I'm very tired, hungry, lonely, depressed... I'm procrastinating a lot, because I just don't feel like working which only results in me feeling even worse. And the worst thing is that I'll be sitting here till 4 PM and then go to a late class and won't be done till 6. And THEN I'll be driving back home, which is kinda yay, but I'm so tired and I hate driving and it's so late and... *cries* I just wish someone would hurry up and invent beaming.

I really could use a hug right now...

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[vampiresetsuna.livejournal.com]

aww, gomen gomen! That's just awful! New classes are stressful enough without having to deal with idiot secrataries... I hope that your day gets better!