*meows sadly*
Jan. 10th, 2003 05:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
silversolitaireI'm just too sensitive. Right now I'm terribly depressed about an episode of the Powerpuff Girls! I hate it when they act so cruelly, when they beat someone up even though they haven't done anything >_<. There was a dog driving a car and blocking the road and Bubbles just beat him up! He begged "Please! Don't hurt me!" but she just kept beating him up! I hate it when they do that... just like Rainbow the Clown...
It just keeps getting worse... I'm bound to be depressed today. First Sherlock starts playing with a mouse and doesn't kill it and it's just lying there in the snow, tail twitching and feet moving... my dad then took it behind the shed. He said he put it into a woodpile and when it realized it was safe it walked away, but I wonder if he was just lying to me...
And then I watched a docu on hippos and it was all fine and dandy... with turtles and other cute animals... and a hippo lady gave birth to a cute little baby... it was so cute and they showed nice, lovely scenes. And then a big hippo male came along and killed it. It screamed and struggled and the mother tried to save it, but it was all in vain. Then there were those awful scenes of the baby hippo floating in the water, dead, and the mother tried to nudge it, to wake it up... but it was in vain.
This made me so sad. I was crying hard, I couldn't stand it. But nobody understands me. I've got no one to talk to right now. My bro yelled at me and changed the channel, which made it only worse. If I can't see the rest of it I'll just keep remembering it. And my mom asked why I was crying and then said cold-heartedly "Then don't watch this sort of stuff." My dad just came over and looked at me wordlessly. Nobody understands me. And I can't talk to Tom. He'd understand me, and comfort me. But he's not there... T_T Why is it so hard to understand that this makes me sad? Why is it so embarrassing for everyone that they ignore it and look away and just act like I wasn't sitting here, crying my eyes out?
This hurts me more than anything else... Maybe I'm silly for getting upset over things like that. But I'm sensitive. And I only get upset like that when I'm depressed already. But no, why ask... it's only me. I always get along...
*curls up*
It just keeps getting worse... I'm bound to be depressed today. First Sherlock starts playing with a mouse and doesn't kill it and it's just lying there in the snow, tail twitching and feet moving... my dad then took it behind the shed. He said he put it into a woodpile and when it realized it was safe it walked away, but I wonder if he was just lying to me...
And then I watched a docu on hippos and it was all fine and dandy... with turtles and other cute animals... and a hippo lady gave birth to a cute little baby... it was so cute and they showed nice, lovely scenes. And then a big hippo male came along and killed it. It screamed and struggled and the mother tried to save it, but it was all in vain. Then there were those awful scenes of the baby hippo floating in the water, dead, and the mother tried to nudge it, to wake it up... but it was in vain.
This made me so sad. I was crying hard, I couldn't stand it. But nobody understands me. I've got no one to talk to right now. My bro yelled at me and changed the channel, which made it only worse. If I can't see the rest of it I'll just keep remembering it. And my mom asked why I was crying and then said cold-heartedly "Then don't watch this sort of stuff." My dad just came over and looked at me wordlessly. Nobody understands me. And I can't talk to Tom. He'd understand me, and comfort me. But he's not there... T_T Why is it so hard to understand that this makes me sad? Why is it so embarrassing for everyone that they ignore it and look away and just act like I wasn't sitting here, crying my eyes out?
This hurts me more than anything else... Maybe I'm silly for getting upset over things like that. But I'm sensitive. And I only get upset like that when I'm depressed already. But no, why ask... it's only me. I always get along...
*curls up*
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Date: 2003-01-13 02:13 pm (UTC)i understand. really.
*kisskiss*