My friends

[silversolitaire]

Hm... I didn't want to post this for the longest time, since there was this sudden flood of memes rushing over LJ (which I still don't quite understand, in all honesty). However, I had started this little something already this summer and thought it'd be a nice thing to let my friends know how I feel for them and I was going to post that, but every time I wanted to, somebody posted yet another meme thing or something to the effect and I didn't want to be a lemming, so I didn't post it. Silly me ^_^;. Anyway, it's Christmas soon and I want to spread the love, so that's why I'm just gonna go ahead and post this.

This list is in no particular order, most likely it's chronological, but not necessarily. I apologize profoundly if I have missed someone who expected to be on this list. If I did, just tell me and I will add your part, too. But I'm pretty sure I've included all the important people here. Some people on this list aren't really close friends anymore, but I had already written your parts, so I just left them there. Some are a bit edited, some have been left out. This is really the status quo. Oh, and it's not anonymous, because I think it's stupid (no offense). So, if you who are on this list for some reason don't want to be included here, let me know as well. *snugs*

So, go ahead and read if you dare. Love you all.



Fleur

She came into my life without me really noticing it. Suddenly, she was there and suddenly she was one of my bestest friends. For some strange reason she likes me and likes the things I do. She has often surprised me with her kind words and with the unconditional support she grants me. Even though I'm quite a sociophobe person she never lets me retreat into my shell and with her openness and friendliness she has managed to make me a social person around her. I often miss her and I wish she was available more often, but I know - unlike me - she has a very active social life and I'm glad that she does.

Kat

I've known her for almost two years now and it seems like an eternity to me. We used to be closer and sometimes I wish it could still be that way. She gave me something that nobody else yet could: she made me discover the ease at which I can create stories, taught me how to unleash my creativity. Sometimes she makes me angry and I wish I could hate her, but I never can, because I adore her and I think she's one of the brightest, most talented people I've ever met. I don't know what it is about her, maybe it's the immense confidence she has in her own skills or the total lack of artificial artist mannerism, but I'm absolutely convinced that she's going to do great things one day. I only wish I was there to share it with her then.

Norty

While writing this I realized I couldn't really write anything about her. All the things I could write and already had written are lying in the past and she's no longer that person. I'm not saying that this is a bad thing, but it just makes it impossible for me to really write anything deep here. Sometimes I regret we're no longer what we used to be, but times have changed and so have we.

Li

I will always love her, somehow. I'm sorry that we couldn't be what we had planned to be. Things looked so great on the drawing board, but in reality they were impossible to accomplish. We were too different, personally, culturally and artistically. We both were too much of an artist to really pay attention to the other one. I still think she's beautiful, smart, talented, interesting, passionate and yet so shy. Unfortunately, for me this was an impossible mixture. I would take her as my sister anytime and that's exactly what she doesn't need.

Nico

He used to be my greatest support for a while, my closest confidant. He's the one to know most about the person I used to be, and possibly am now. We have drifted apart a bit and I know it's my fault, too. I think I've known him forever. I loved it when we were connected and we knew what the other one was thinking and we shared everything with each other. He's still inside of me. We were going to do great things together. Maybe we still will? One can only hope.

X

I will never forgive myself. I just know it. He was such a strong person, so perfect and secure on his path. He knew exactly what he wanted and how to get it. There was never a moment of doubt in his life. He was too generous and loveable to focus on just a few people. He had so many friends, I can hardly count them. And I was one of them. And a very close one for the longest time. He made me see that being independent isn't such a bad thing after all. When he lived at my place for a couple of months, I actually enjoyed my life. I'm sorry that I let him slip away, I'm sorry that I thought we'd have more time and I'll never ever forgive myself for that. I miss him... so much. And I can never undo this mistake.

Tom

What can I say, he's the love of my life. I never thought I'd hear myself say that and yet it sounds so right. With him, everything sounds right. And I'm doing everything right this time. It's a strange feeling, but I wouldn't want to miss it. With him I'm whole, with him I heal, with him I'm more of myself. He teaches me and lets me teach him, he listens and tells me things. When I look at him I often just want to cuddle him and smooch him to death, or I want to pounce him and ravish him. Or I just want to snuggle up and know everything will be all right. I don't know how I got this lucky, but I'm very very grateful.

Sabby

We met under the oddest circumstances. He was a white dragon and I was a heartbroken blue cat. I was prepared to hate him and yet he made me love him. He helped me to get over myself in a lot of ways and he helps me again and again to find the strength to deal with things. I wish he'd let me closer, I wish he'd listen to me more. But I'm confident that time will take care of that and I'm looking forward to the future.

Kris

She is wise, so inspeakably wise. Her wisdom amazes me. I wish I could talk to her every day, for hours and hours, but I know I'm a lazy person and I'm not a very good mail contact. But the times that we speak it's always marvellous. Her words have often given me comfort, helped me realize things. I envy her for a lot of things, but with her help I'm obtaining them myself now. Sometimes I wish I could give her back some of the things she's given to me, but she never seems to need it.

Ull

She's my oldest friend and the person who's known me for the longest time and is still talking to me. Ironically, she's also the person who knows me the least of all my friends. To her, I'm still the spunky 11 year old she met 13 years ago. Sometimes it's nice to be that, but most of the time it depresses me. I can see her life as it is now and how I am no part of it and everytime we meet I'm just a visitor in her own little world. I don't miss her, because she's still there. We no longer share any interests, but she's a link to my past that I wouldn't want to miss.

Jen

This girl just rocks. That's all I can say. She's so much smarter than me and she's not just smart, she's a scholar. Talking to her is always a pleasure and I'm so happy when I see her. There's nothing negative I could possibly say or think about her. She's supportive and wonderful and a friend I wouldn't want to miss. We're so much alike in so many ways, but also very different at times. It's never a problem. She's also the most fantastic beta ever and if I was making a living with writing I'd beg her on my knees to let me hire her.

Starla

Possibly the oldest net contact up to date. We met in my very first online fandom, Gabriel Knight and developed a very vivid email correspondence. We lost sight of each other after things had changed for me in my life, but we managed to find each other again. It may sound corny, but I see her grow. She's so much different from the 16 year old girl I used to email with, but she's developed beautifully. Unfortunately she's also very busy, so we hardly ever get to talk anymore.

Cammy

There was a time when we were chatting very vividly, every day. There was also a time when we didn't speak for months. However, no matter how long it was that we didn't talk it always seemed like nothing when we got to chat again. That's rare. We chat at the oddest times since our timezones are way off and it'll only get worse once she moves to New Zealand. I like her openness and her ability to get passionate about things, but her obsessions scare me! *g*

Alex

I met her in a time when I was very insecure and lonely. She sat next to me in a Japanese class one day and when we had to do some teamwork and I just blurted out "I write slash!" and she wanted to know all about it. For a glorious year she was the greatest friend I ever had. I was obsessed with her, madly in love, friendwise. I drove all night to be with her, I didn't sleep or eat. We skipped classes together to nap in the park and speak about our novels. It was glorious. Talking with her was the most stimulating thing ever. The following year she disappeared out of my life and was dearly missed until I found the courage to write her a Christmas card. Now she's an elusive force in my life that I can never really grasp, but every time I manage to it's wonderful.

Kei

She's fun to be with. Adamant in her views we have often wildly discussed the weirdest things. It's lovely how she treats her Neopets. That little oversexed mind of hers has sometimes made me gulp, but it's nice to be able to talk with her about such things. I hope she'll get what she's looking for even though I'm often not so sure what it really is that she needs. She's a snuggleholic.

Comments

[kmazzy.livejournal.com]

It's lovely how she treats her Neopets.

heheheh! what a funny thing to think of me for!

*loves back*

it is nicer when people are named. i may rewrite mine now. well not NOW. but soon. just wait til you hear what i'm going to write about you!

*snuggles, and is indeed a snuggleholic*

[fleurrochard]

You know, I can't understand why you think it's strange that I like you. That I love you. It's not strange for me at all! You're a wonderful, creative, smart, fun and loving person and most important, you are you. How couldn't I love you?

I'll be online tonight, hon. Maybe late, because Wibke will visit me, but since she has to work tomorrow, I don't think she'll stay the whole evening.
*hugs and kisses* Love you.

[kribban.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Silver!
Am blushing. This is so nice of you.
*hugs*

Sometimes I wish I could give her back some of the things she's given to me, but she never seems to need it.

When I do need advice I always write about my problems in my e-mails to you.
You rock!