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silversolitaireI must admit I don't understand memes. At all. I don't mean to put anyone down who's already posted one and I'm sure they all were lovely and the coolest meme ever, but seriously, what's the point? Being the self-loathing twat that I am I wouldn't ever imagine to be on any meme, so even if I was it'd just bounce off me. Most of the time it depresses me, because I generally feel excluded of everything. That's just how I am. So, I wonder if others perhaps feel the same way. So, what's the point then? I don't get it.
I've been collected one of those "100 random facts about me" for months, literally. Almost a year, actually. I started writing it last January and kept adding to it. And I swear, every time I thought about posting it a suddenl wave of memes and 100-facts posts suddenly flooded LJ. And being the individualistic person that I am I always put away mine again. I'd like to be original. I don't like to be one of the crowd. Similarily, I've written a nice post about some people around me already last summer. I wrote a nice paragraph about what I think of them. But I never posted it, because I stopped caring about some, and for some I didn't write very nice things, but I couldn't write anything else. Should I ever post it, I'd post it with names. If I ever have to tell someone something negative, I'll tell it openly. That's why I'll probably never post it, since there's no point in humiliating someone publicly, but I don't hide in anonymity either. So there. Guess there's the answer.
*sighs* Sometimes I wish I was a better person. I shouldn't always feel so bitter about everything. About people, specifically. Note, this still isn't connected to the meme thing. It just kinda came back to my memory right now...
I've been collected one of those "100 random facts about me" for months, literally. Almost a year, actually. I started writing it last January and kept adding to it. And I swear, every time I thought about posting it a suddenl wave of memes and 100-facts posts suddenly flooded LJ. And being the individualistic person that I am I always put away mine again. I'd like to be original. I don't like to be one of the crowd. Similarily, I've written a nice post about some people around me already last summer. I wrote a nice paragraph about what I think of them. But I never posted it, because I stopped caring about some, and for some I didn't write very nice things, but I couldn't write anything else. Should I ever post it, I'd post it with names. If I ever have to tell someone something negative, I'll tell it openly. That's why I'll probably never post it, since there's no point in humiliating someone publicly, but I don't hide in anonymity either. So there. Guess there's the answer.
*sighs* Sometimes I wish I was a better person. I shouldn't always feel so bitter about everything. About people, specifically. Note, this still isn't connected to the meme thing. It just kinda came back to my memory right now...
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Yes you may!
Date: 2002-12-13 09:51 am (UTC)"There's no malice, it's just for entertainment purposes only. Some people genuinely have fun looking for themselves in the list."
Yes I realize that! ^_^; I guess it'd be fun, yes, but for people with clinically low self-esteem it's a pain. I'm sure I'd love it if close friends of mine did that.
"Other people's opinions don't matter in this, are they not going to believe you?"
I guess... But I always care too much about other people's opinion's and I don't like being a lemming. *hangs head*
"I suggest reexamining why that person is on your list."
I know. You're right. But didn't you ever feel like someone should know something, but you're no longer able to say it nicely, but you wish you could? Just because you're so estranged by now?
"All I can say is that bitterness is very destructive."
Yes, it is, and I wish I could be a better person and get rid of it. Honestly. I wish I could.