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silversolitaireWaiting for Fleur! ^.^ And for Tom, so I can say good-bye to him properly. Dum-dee-dum. I'll miss him... *huggies* But it's nice to have Fleur here, too.
My birthday tomorrow... wah... I had nightmares last night! I couldn't sleep at first. Had the weirdest thoughts. I suddenly had to think that my dad's 55 already. That he's old. That he will be 60 soon. I kinda realized that my youth is over, once and for all. It made me sad. I will be 24. 24! My God... just a few days ago we were talking about how nice it was when we were taking all those camping trips through France and that we should do some sort of "Family-France-Revival" eventually. We stopped going on vacation together when I was 15 or so after we kept fighting and hating each other. Now I almost regret it. Because my family and I, we always have a lot of fun. I like to talk to my dad and bro, and we have similar interests, too. We like a bit of culture, seeing castles and sights, then going shopping or in some theme or water park. It's a good mix. I wish we'd do it again...
Well, and last night I realized that this is over. And I was sad. Suddenly, I thought that he could die and I felt like crying. I had to force myself to see that 55 isn't THAT old and that he's still likely to be around for a long time. But God... I felt old, I felt old for him and everyone else. *shakes head* I hate birthdays...
Ick! Didn't mean to end on such a sad note. No, I'm determined to enjoy my time. Fleur will be here, I have Tom and Sabby, I have nice friends who think of me. All will be well... *nods*
My birthday tomorrow... wah... I had nightmares last night! I couldn't sleep at first. Had the weirdest thoughts. I suddenly had to think that my dad's 55 already. That he's old. That he will be 60 soon. I kinda realized that my youth is over, once and for all. It made me sad. I will be 24. 24! My God... just a few days ago we were talking about how nice it was when we were taking all those camping trips through France and that we should do some sort of "Family-France-Revival" eventually. We stopped going on vacation together when I was 15 or so after we kept fighting and hating each other. Now I almost regret it. Because my family and I, we always have a lot of fun. I like to talk to my dad and bro, and we have similar interests, too. We like a bit of culture, seeing castles and sights, then going shopping or in some theme or water park. It's a good mix. I wish we'd do it again...
Well, and last night I realized that this is over. And I was sad. Suddenly, I thought that he could die and I felt like crying. I had to force myself to see that 55 isn't THAT old and that he's still likely to be around for a long time. But God... I felt old, I felt old for him and everyone else. *shakes head* I hate birthdays...
Ick! Didn't mean to end on such a sad note. No, I'm determined to enjoy my time. Fleur will be here, I have Tom and Sabby, I have nice friends who think of me. All will be well... *nods*
old dads
Date: 2002-07-30 01:54 am (UTC)that´s really nothing.
My father turned 60 when I was 16, and he is, *counts*, 65 now. 66 this year.
So DON´T worry about it!!
Also, in his family they get really old, and he doesn´t smoke or drink, and he walks 30 minutes every day and eats healthy.
/Kristina