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[silversolitaire]

Did I ever mention my depressions? No? Because this would be a good moment to talk about it. I'm feeling very anxious right now and angry. But also sad. I have this uncontrollable urge to cause damage... pain... I can't think of anything else. The brilliantly red trickle running over my skin. The sweet sting of the metal on my body... ah... I'm having a hard time fighting this. I had to promise so many people not to do it anymore. And I'm trying, I really do. All I'm left with is watching Big Brother and sipping on my beer. And I'm sobering... not good.