What the fuck is wrong with me?

[silversolitaire]

I don't understand myself anymore. Why am I always so sad? It makes absolutely no sense. I should be happy. Those words are hammering in my head. Those four words...

You. Should. Be. Happy.

I have no reason to be sad. Life is fine. People are good to me. But still... I just thought I was over it. Yesterday, I smiled. It was nice. I had a nice day. And now... things that should make me happy, don't. I read something and it makes me so unspeakably sad, although it's not. It's other people's lives that make me sad. I feel like ever other life is better than mine.

How long has this been going on... how long...

How can I be happy again?

Comments

*hugs*

[cairnsy.livejournal.com]

*glomps Silver*

Just remember, it could be worse. In some alternative universe you might be some anti-slasher who writes self-insert after self-insert ...

*shudders*

Even I don't want to think about that.

Hmmm .... you could always write some Oliver/Percy - always makes me feel better ;)

I have *got* to stop the constant plugging of that pairing ...

*more glomps*
Cairnsy