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Feb. 16th, 2001 09:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
silversolitaireI don't know why I am so sad. I cried all day for no particular reason. I mean, there always was some reason, but I bet it's nothing to cry over. But still I do... I wanted to die again today. Just fade away. I'm feeling paralyzed. I want to write. So badly, but I'm just feeling so bad...
I love my cat. He's my only comfort. His purring is so gratifying and when I cry into his coat, I'm feeling cleansed. I'm so glad I can be here with him now. My lovely little lynx...
There's something good about it though. I don't feel the slightest impulse to hurt myself. I just want to cry. And that's allowed, isn't it?
I love my cat. He's my only comfort. His purring is so gratifying and when I cry into his coat, I'm feeling cleansed. I'm so glad I can be here with him now. My lovely little lynx...
There's something good about it though. I don't feel the slightest impulse to hurt myself. I just want to cry. And that's allowed, isn't it?
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Date: 2001-02-16 01:26 pm (UTC)ive been feeling like that lately. just sad, and crying because of it. and it feels *good* to have a cry every now and then.. and it IS better than hurtin yahself. *nodsnods* i love cats too. my calico purrs a lot, and the bengal just digs her claws in and meows loudly. but i love them both.