silversolitaire

So I found this knot on my left inner thigh. I've discovered it a couple of weeks ago and thought it would go away. But it didn't. Today it started hurting. My Dad said that it's highly unlikely to get cancer there. But well, unlikely is not impossible, is it? So many people died of cancer in my family. It wouldn't really be a surprise.

Today while I was taking a bath, I had the weirdest thoughts. I thought that if I was to die of cancer then there would nothing be in my life that I have achieved. What do I have? I hard drive full of stories that I never finished. Nothing worth noticing. Worth remembering. I thought of Miguel, "Our greatest adventure is over before it began and no one will even remember us." Somehow I don't want this to happen.

I don't fear death, but I'm not finished with life yet. I know that. I've got plans, even if they are lame. I want to be a writer. I've got a timeplan for that ^_^. Hey, I'm only 22, I'm well within my schedule.

So, this term break I will work on my book full force. Just like Margaret Atwood, the great one. This will keep me busy, too. I still don't know if I want to write it in first or third person though! LOL The scenes keep changing.

Well... whatever future has in store for me. I'm hoping the best. Hope this knot leaves. It sure is hurting. Tomorrow I've got a date. Well, sorta. Since we didn't get to meet tonight we'll have breakfast together. That's cool. Always wanted to have fancy breakfast in a restaurant ^_~.