Where was that coming from?

[silversolitaire]

Today, I had the urge to swallow rat poison again. Not that I ever would have acted upon it, but it's confusing why I'm having these cravings again. Out of the blue... I wish my brain wasn't so messed up. I can't look at a chemical without thinking how poisonous it is. For years I wanted to drink petrol! Don't know why. I can imagine how it would taste... burning down my throat. It's very weird...