Emptiness...
Oct. 14th, 2001 09:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
silversolitaireRight now, I'm feeling terribly empty. Like someone had pulled the rug from under my feet and I landed on my ass, helpless. I feel like I have nothing inside of me right now. No inspiration, no story, no drawing.
I'm so scared... As of tomorrow, I'll be sitting in my flat, alone and bored... nothing to write or draw. I just have nothing inside of my right now. Wiped away. All of it. I feel like I will never be able to write again. I hope it'll pass. Right now, I can't even imagine what I could write if I was to open a new word-document. Just... nothing...
I realize I am nothing when I can't be creative. It scares me... What if I'll ever lose it? Much like I'm feeling now...
I'm so sad right now, I just want to cry.
I'm so scared... As of tomorrow, I'll be sitting in my flat, alone and bored... nothing to write or draw. I just have nothing inside of my right now. Wiped away. All of it. I feel like I will never be able to write again. I hope it'll pass. Right now, I can't even imagine what I could write if I was to open a new word-document. Just... nothing...
I realize I am nothing when I can't be creative. It scares me... What if I'll ever lose it? Much like I'm feeling now...
I'm so sad right now, I just want to cry.
