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Went to a costume party today. My costume got selected among the five to compete for two great prices. When it was my turn to face the audience vote, people booed at me. It really hurt me a lot lot. I fought not to show it, but my heart was bleeding. Especially since I thought my costume was a lot better than the other three. The winning couple absolutely deserved it, but the other three were really lame, nothing out of the ordinary. So it only leaves the conclusion that they were booing at me personally. Why do people do this. They don't realize how much this hurts, especially someone like me who already has zero self-esteem. I hate myself so much right now I can't bare to look at my face. I never want to go out again... I was so looking forward to wearing my nice costume. I never wanted to compete for a price. I never wanted people to express an opinion on me. And yet they booed at me. I just want to die.