On jealousy

I took the jealousy test elance mentioned. Not sure. My score was 21, meaning I have a complete lack of jealous feelings and am extremely secure, strong, and independent.

Uhm... I don't know. I was honest to myself, but that's not really true, I think. Seriously. I used to be a lot less jealous when I was still with Li. Mainly because she was smothering me with HER jealousy. Then I met Tom and for a while I really gave him hell with my jealousy. I was bad... ;_; But that was mainly because... I don't know, really. But I think I'm better now. Tom, am I better?

Anyway. All those questions didn't really convey my feelings when I feel jealous. The only question I was mildly iffy about was the one with a girl calling, asking to speak to him and obviously being on friendly terms. I'd probably wonder who she was since I'd be surprised she was never mentioned to me. But that'd be the main reason bothering me. Not that a girl was calling and using his first name. And none of the possible answers seemed to contain what I'd actually do. I'd pass on the phone without further ado and ask later on. That answer wasn't even there! The other semi-iffy thing was seeing him flirt with someone else on a party. But then again, I wouldn't turn into a raging maniac.

The question that was the oddest to me was where I learn that my boyfriend confided in his friend that he had had a sexual dream about an actress. I wouldn't care about that in the least! Hell, I drool at other characters, actors, actresses, cartoon characters, singers etc. all the time! I wouldn't mind that at all. However, what I would mind is that he'd think he couldn't tell me that. Because I certainly would have liked to hear that dream! ^.^ I like knowing what rocks my love's boat. So, really, I couldn't answer it accurately. I'd be bothered, but not because of him having a dream.

Oh well. *pledges to be better*

*amused*

Am I a Lesbian?

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Action figure sexism?

I was just looking through an action figure catalogue and took notice of the Spider-man figures on sale.

What caught my attention was the extreme oddity of the dolls. Like, there's a Peter doll which shows him practising his web-casting skills. He's standing in front of a cupboard full of typical teenanger crap and he has water-shooting action where he can try to knock down things. O.o;

A little less peculiar is the Norman doll which shows him standing next to the armchair, with the Green Goblin mask hanging down the side of it, talking to him. Ooohkay. A little more amusing is the Jameson doll which shows him sitting at his desk and by pressing a button you get furious desk-banging action (no, I'm not making this up!).

Now, after all this amusement I was rather... not amused to see the Mary Jo action doll variety. What would you expect her to be? Seriously, I wouldn't really have a better suggestion either since she mostly spends her time in the movie being rescued, and yet... her action doll shows her standing on a balcony. The balcony has collapsing-action -.-;. She doesn't even have her own action, dammit! Where's a scream-button that says "Spider-man HELP!!!!"? *pouts* Where's the fun in that?

Pink - Family Portrait

Family Portrait
by Pink

Mama please stop cryin'
I can't stand the sound
Your pain is painful and it's
Tearing me down

I hear glasses breaking
As I sit up in my bed
I told God you didn't mean
Those nasty things you said
You fight about money
About me and my brother
And this I come home to
This is my shelter

It ain't easy, growin' up in WW3
Never knowin' what love could be
You'll see, I don't want love to destroy me
Like it has done my family

Can we work it out
Can we be a family
I promise I'll be better
Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out
Can we be a family
I promise I'll be better
Daddy please don't leave

Daddy please stop yelling
I can't stand the sound
Make mama stop cryin'
'Cause I need you around
My mama she loves you
No matter what she says is true
I know that she hurts you
But remember I love you too!

I ran away today, ran from the noise
Ran away (ran away)
Don't wanna go back to that place
But don't have no choice, no way

It ain't easy, growin' up in WW3
Never knowin' what love could be
But I've seen, I don't want love to destroy me
Like it has done my family

In our family portrait
We look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, let's act like it
Comes naturally
I don't wanna have to split the holidays I don't want two addresses
I don't want a stepbrother anyway
And I don't want my mom to have to change her last name!

Mama'll be nicer
I'll be so much better
I'll tell my brother
I won't spill the milk at dinner
I'll be so much better
I'll do everything right
I'll be your little girl forever
I'll go to sleep at night

Daddy don't leave... daddy don't leave