Interesting facts #142

I can only write when it's completely quiet. Any sound distracts me usually, especially when it's talking or lyrics of a song, because I tend to listen to it all the time. When I can't have silence, then I usually put in earplugs, headphones and listen to "I'll Make a Man Out of You" on repeat! ^_^;

*curls up*

I've gained weight again... I don't get it. I'm not doing anything I haven't been doing for the past 2 years. On the contrary, I've even been doing more sports. And yet I keep gaining weight. I can't stop it. Is it the new pills they put me on? I don't know what to do T_T. I don't want to gain weight... I want to lose it... And I can't be "just happy" with my weight and the way I look. I just can't. It makes me sick and hate myself when I look at myself in the mirror. I want to go back to the weight I had long before I ever took that goddamn pill for the first time T_T.

-.-;;;;;;

I guess I should be grateful, but I'm not. I just asked my mom if she thought I gained weight. Just to know. And she immediately jumps in on a whole "How to lose weight effectively" lecture and she JUST.WON'T. STOP! I am perfectly aware of all those little traps of everyday life that lead you into snacking between meals and I know that an orange has less calories than a candy bar! Goddamnit! Don't I look busy enough to her? She even stops lunch preparation just so that she can spam me with her wisdom. *grumbles* I guess it's not bad if she keeps an eye out on me and reminds me not to snack or something, but I really don't need it RIGHT NOW!

Gah! >_