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Oh, of couse my download had to screw up 5 mins before it was over! >_< Fuck...

Hahahahaha, Brad Pitt!

Talking to Fleur, I'm trying to reconstruct how on earth I ever happened to like Brad Pitt when I was young and influenceable! I have no idea! It wasn't Legends of the Fall... And not Interview with the Vampire... What could it be? I have NO idea... hahaha

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Hmmm...

LJ is... kinda down. It's weird.... It's like typing blindly... ehehe...

I'm tired as hell. I'm sleeping very bad lately. Waking up 10 times or so, at least. Terrible... Now I've got a headache... Gah.

I should install the software to hotsync with my Psion now. I [heart] by Psion... *snugs*

Life sucks.

Nothing works out. I never should have left bed.

T_T

My Psion can't connect with my computer... *cries* That way, it's fucking useless. How unfair... I just want to cry.... What a disappointment.

*yawns*

Bored... I should be writing Cara now. I wrote a very nice scene last night. Made me feel proud... *_* That way, I can be ready for tonight. *stretch*

Maybe I should take a bath later on. My body is aching all over... T_T

Somehow I dread the upcoming holidays. I don't know. I have a creative low. Meaning, I'm feeling so... unsatisfied with what I do. Yesterday was a surprising change, really.

*HUGE YAWN* I hate it when I can't sleep... T_T

Hmm...

It's strange how you can feel lonely with tons of people around. I think I haven't been hugged for at least... 2 months now. I'm missing it now. Usually I don't. I have this heavy feeling on my chest and I don't like it. A feeling that makes me want to start running. Just run and run and never look back. Like Forrest Gump did. Is it a silly feeling? I don't know...

I often have this idea. Of skating on the highway, ahead of all the cars, endlessly free. I keep wanting to do that...

*switches off ICQ*

useless.

Where was that coming from?

Today, I had the urge to swallow rat poison again. Not that I ever would have acted upon it, but it's confusing why I'm having these cravings again. Out of the blue... I wish my brain wasn't so messed up. I can't look at a chemical without thinking how poisonous it is. For years I wanted to drink petrol! Don't know why. I can imagine how it would taste... burning down my throat. It's very weird...

YES!

Love at First Bite is on!!!!

^___________^

Damn, George Hamilton was so sexy 1979... *sighs*