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ARGH! My network fucked up... won't let me get back on.

Gonna go to bed now... *cusses*

Memo to me:

Download stuff from streamload in the morning. Speed is four times as high then...

I still know Japanese! *_*

What a surprise! hahaha

Looks like my three years weren't totally in vain then! I just read some lyrics and I actually understood them! Amazing... I always thought my Japanese sucked so bad. That's why I dropped my studies in the first place. It was just too frustrating. Hm... maybe I should pick them up again? *thinks*

dare hitori shiru hazu no nai kono "merodi" ga omae ni wa kikoeru ka?

Can you hear the melody that nobody else can? Weeeeeeeeeh! *_*

Oof!

54% of 167 MB, 1 hr 33 Min. left.

*roarrrr*

Announcement...

Friendified chaobell. Uhm, just because! ^_^

OMG!

I just had a flash of enlightment how many web comic artist (or real comic artists to begin with) do theit comics! They just prepare a set of characters and expressions once and then paste them together the way they need it! That's when you get those really crappy strips where you only see four panels of two people with different mouth positions saying something witty!

Fuckers! Why didn't I see that before?

There's nothing like good ol' handdrawn comics... *huggles BmB*

*sniffs*

I think my bro has immortalized the phrase:

"His body has left, but his stench remained."

ugh....

Chichi no baka...

Great! My dad is drugging my mom instead of making her feel better! Fucker! She can't slept or eat, because he broke her heart and instead of trying to ease her pain he brings her antidepressants.

Asshole! Why don't you call her up for a change?? Why don't you sit down and talk to her? Why do you fucking carry that stupid cell around with you all the time when you don't ever call us up!!!!! It's because of that woman, right? And you wonder why my mom gets sad every time you disappear suddenly, pretending to have something very urgent to do??? You are SO easy to see through! Vibro-alarms for cells are a blessing, aren't they? I can'd believe I admired you!!!!

YOU COWARD!!!!!

... and while I'm at it.

It SO sucks how you never seem to see how other people feel. How come you've never asked me why I'm sad so often? No, you don't. I'm buying my anti-depressants myself, FYI, because I'd rather die than tell you! You know? Now I'm so glad I've never told you anything important. It's all a lie. All you ever said or did. A fucking lie. You make me sick!

Hey! I'm in therapy for half a year now! I'm suicidal, yes! I've tried it twice! My last boyfriend tried to kill me! I've got a problem with self-injury! I'm writing! Tons of stuff! And you'll never see it! And I'm gay! Yes! You'll never know, because you never fucking care!

But sure, go ahead. Call your girlfriend. After all, she's more important. Mom and I are doing fine without you. Go away...

I want Yami no Matsuei...

Okay... I've downloaded all the music I could. I've seen episode 1-5 and 9-12. I reeeeeeally want to see 6 and 13. Fuck. And I want the two artbooks. I'd be satisfied with the DVD-box, too! ANYthing! *sobs*

I wanna...

Somehow I still feel hurt. I know my girlfriend didn't mean it and she's said she's sorry and she's trying, but still. I fear to tell her that I want to see the rest, because then she'll say I'm trying to get the best of her again. Ack... it's a pain.

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Gonna take a bath now... Will watch some Dragonball Z later on.

Bleh, I have to read Room with a View and it sucks so bad. I mean, I'm sure it's great, but right now it bores me out of my wits. Okay, E.M. Foster was a gay in the closet. Maybe I can find SOME subtext at least... *cries*

Nooooooooo! nonono....

HAIR! What are you doing??? I look like Selphie!!! Stop that! Immediately!!!! *sobs*

I need a hair cut...

I feel like a new hairdo. Suggestions anyone? I think I'll grow my bangs at the sides and cut the back of my head short again. Leave a couple of fringes to hang in my face. That shoud look nice. I can braid the side bangs then or just let them hang down. Hmmmm....

Ack...

Another day has passed and I still haven't written anything! FUCK!!!!

Lyrics, thanks cameron for putting this song in my head! hahaha

I don't know you anymore
Savage Garden

I would like to visit you for a while
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn't have called
But someone had to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax, talk about anything
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend
That you've forgiven me

'Cause I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

Springtime in the city
Always such relief from the winter freeze
The snow was more lonely than cold
If you know what I mean
Everone's got an agenda
Don't stop, keep that chin up
You'll be alright
Can you believe what a year it's been
Are you still the same?
Has your opinion changed?

'Cause I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from these sentences
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

I know I let you down
Again and again
I know I never really treated you right
I've paid the price
I'm still paying for it every day

So maybe I shouldn't have called
Was it too soon to tell?
Oh what the hell
It doesn't really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
Has your opinion changed?

Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

I see your face
I see your face

(thanks norty for that "agenda" bit... *coughs*)