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Went to counseling again today. As always, it was very enlightening. It's true, I am torn. Part of me wants to change things, but the other part wants to remain where I am. It's a vicious circle. All these fears I have, about not being who I am once I got rid of my depression... That's true. Also, how I am so freaked out at the thought of my girlfriend's arrival. I always think people will absord me fully, won't give me room to breathe... Might to always be true.

Well, I have to think about it...

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Tomorrow I might get a new laptop... Oh wow... what a thought... I'm a bit nervous. All the money... And my poor Cid. He's been a good friend... for almost 4 years. I will always think of him dearly. But Cid Jr.... I'm looking forward to him, I admit it! ^_^ I hope I get it tomorrow right away! But let's face it. Either I can't decide, or I need to order the one I really want first. Man... I'll type like crap for a while, needing to get used to the new keyboard. But wow... I will be able to use Photoshop on it! Hurray!!! hehehhe

I hope I get a tablet tomorrow as well. And I want a Psion Revo... Hmmmmm.... well, that might have to wait. I'm just thinking, if I have to take thousands of bucks from my savings account anyway (and practically plunder it), I might as well buy other stuff right way... hm....