saved by the childproof cap...

just sat in front of the closet for 30 mins. inspecting the bottles for their most poisonous contents. found liquid plummer. stared at it for a while. tried to open it. failed, too stupid to open the cap. while trying thought "what are you doing?!?". got it open, sniffed it, thought some more, suddenly loud noise, yanked me out of my mood. good thing. when will be next time 'm scared... cold...

wanna curl up in bed now... to die... to sleep... perchance to dream...