check!

Added some of my poetry to my website. I'm actually quite proud of most of it, I'm just not sure about making it public. I'll give it a try, I guess. It's just very personal and I'm also feeling sorta protective about it. Hm.

New books!

I've ordered two new fabulous books!

David Ehrenstein, Open Secret : Gay Hollywood, 1928-2000
and
Wayne M. Bryant, Bisexual Characters in Film : From Anais to Zee

Can't wait! ^_^

Noch ein Leben

Inspired by Meimi I give you one of my favorite lyrics. They're of the song "Noch ein Leben" by Pur.

Noch ein Leben - Another life

A cold shiver
Is crawling over my skin
Never erased from memory
Why that night?
What were you thinking?
What wiped away your doubts?
The profound sadness in you
I didn't have a sense for it
Unlike your smile
I overlooked it in the crowd
"Kites Shall Fly" was your favorite song
And that night you made it come true
And started to fly
Without wings, from the 13th floor

You chose your end yourself
Life only tormented you
But was that fair? Wasn't that cowardice?
You give no one a second chance
Only when your last curtain falls
Then the world will lose
Its heart for you
And still I wish you all the best
Wherever you are right now

You were an unprotected aim
For every arrow
Too much emotion for this world
What was the last kick
For that very last step?
Did your lust for death seduce you?
That you'll owe the answer forever
And thus never will chase away the sorrow
Is inconsiderate and hurts the wrong ones
Those who needed you
Too late to show you what you're missing here
How you hope and dream
Can you forgive yourself?
I didn't want to see kites fall, they were supposed to fly

You chose your end yourself
Life only tormented you
But was that fair? Wasn't that cowardice?
You give no one a second chance
Only when your last curtain falls
Then the world will lose
Its heart for you
And still I wish you all the best
Wherever you are right now

I wish you
Another life
Another life
Another life with a fair chance this time

I wish you
Another life
Another life
Another life, but you've only got one chance

While I'm at it, another fatalistic piece of music...

Join me
HIM

We are so young
Our lives have just begun
But already we're considering
escape from this world
And we've waited for so long
For this moment to come
We're so anxious to be together
Together in death

Won't you die tonight for love? (baby, join me in death)
Won't you die? (baby, join me in death)
Won't you die tonight for love? (baby, join me in death)

This world is a cruel place
And we're here only to lose
So, before life tears us apart
Let death bless me with you

Will you die tonight for love? (baby, join me in death)
So, will you die? (baby, join me in death)
Will you die tonight for love? (baby, join me in death)
Join me in death

This life ain't worth livin' (join me, join me, join me)
This life ain't worth livin'!

Won't you die tonight for love?
Baby, join me in death
So, will you die?
Baby, join me in death
Will you die tonight for love?
Baby, join me in death

Singing ya-ya-yippieh-yippieh-yeiiiiih!!!!

My very own private email-addy is finally working! Weeeeeeh! *_* Now I can write and receive email under silver@glasscases.net. That's sooooooo cool! *beams*

All go an mail me! ^_~

Educating Alex

This is from Ardveche's 'Educating Alex', a story that I stumbled upon completely coincidentally and really liked. The title is dreadful, but the story is really sweet and nice. The first part was planned as a stand-alone without much meaning and it shows, but part 2 to 4 are wonderful. So witty and funny and romantic and really realistic.

It's about this gay guy, Ryan, sweet and intelligent, who gets a new room mate, Alex, a supposedly straight guy, athletic and popular. As things develop, Alex realizes that he has feelings for Ryan, which confuses him, but then he decides to take a step and breaks up with his girlfriend to confess his feelings to Ryan.

That's where part 1 leaves you with. Then, in part 2, they develop a tender relationship, but Alex is afraid to come out. He really likes being with Ryan, and likes getting physical with him, too, but he's afraid of what his team mates may think. However, realization stikes and he wants to pursue a proper relationship with Ryan.

Well, that's all I'm going to say, but it's really nice! ^_^

I especially love this part:

"

I stayed where I was, and listened to the sound of the bath running, mentally debating whether to go through and join him. I ought to go, if only to make sure he didn't conduct any more experiments in creating life by combining my toiletries. The last bath he had taken unsupervised had featured about twenty distinct ingredients and smelled like a French whore house (as my dear, delightful father would say). He was always doing stuff like that, which was why he wasn't allowed to cook!

"

Dear Dr. Laura...

Just got this in on FFN-Slashers-Unite. Priceless! ^_^

Background:

Laura Schlessinger is a US radio personality who dispenses advice to people who call in to her radio show. Recently, she said that as an observant Orthodox Jew, she believes that homosexuality is an abomination according to Leviticus 18:22 and cannot be condoned in any circumstance.

The following is an open letter to Dr. Laura penned by a US resident, and posted on the Internet.

Dear Dr. Laura:

Thank you for doing so much to educate people regarding God's Law. I have learned a great deal from your show, and I try to share that knowledge with as many people as I can. When someone tries to defend the homosexual lifestyle, for example, I simply remind them that Leviticus 18:22 clearly states it to be an abomination. End of debate. I do need some advice from you, however, regarding some of the specific laws and how to follow them.

a) When I burn a bull on the altar as a sacrifice, I know it creates a pleasing odor for the Lord (Lev. 1:9). The problem is my neighbours. They claim the odor is not pleasing to them. Should I smite them?

b) I would like to sell my daughter into slavery, as sanctioned in Exodus 21:7. In this day and age, what do you think would be a fair price for her?

c) I know that I am allowed no contact with a woman while she is in her period of menstrual uncleanliness (Lev. 15:19-24). The problem is, how do I tell? I have tried asking, but most women take offence.

d) Lev. 25:44 states that I may indeed possess slaves, both male and female, provided they are purchased from neighbouring nations. A friend of mine claims that this applies to Mexicans, but not Canadians. Can you clarify? Why can't I own Canadians?

e) I have a neighbour who insists on working on the Sabbath. Exodus 35:2 clearly states he should be put to death. Am I morally obligated to kill him myself?

f) A friend of mine feels that even though eating shellfish is an abomination (Lev. 11:10), it is a lesser abomination than homosexuality. I don't agree. Can you settle this?

g) Lev. 21:20 states that I may not approach the altar of God if I have a defect in my sight. I have to admit that I wear reading glasses. Does my vision have to be 20/20, or is there some wiggle room here?

h) Most of my male friends get their hair trimmed, including the hair around their temples, even though this is expressly forbidden by Lev.19:27. How should they die?

i) I know from Lev. 11:6-8 that touching the skin of a dead pig makes me unclean, but may I still play football if I wear gloves?

j) My uncle has a farm. He violates Lev. 19:19 by planting two different crops in the same field, as does his wife by wearing garments made of two different kinds of thread (cotton/polyester blend). He also tends to curse and blaspheme a lot. Is it really necessary that we go to all the trouble of getting the whole town together to stone them? (Lev.24:10-16) Couldn't we just burn them to death at a private family affair like we do with people who sleep with their in-laws? (Lev. 20:14)

I know you have studied these things extensively, so I am confident you can help. Thank you again for reminding us that God's word is eternal and unchanging. Your devoted disciple and adoring fan.