Two weird things happening...

I came into my flat to find a letter, written by hand in black ink saying "Dear proprietor. I'm interested in renting your house. Please contact me under... etc."

Uh-huh. Now, where would I live then? Strangeness... I'm tempted to write back "Dear stranger. Although it may not look like it, this house indeed is inhabited. By me, that is. It's not deserted, the tenant is just very, very hostile... thus the shuttered windows and ignoring of door bells."

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Oh, and the secong this that happened was that a spider apparently started building a net in my sink! And I've only left for two days!!! That disgusting! I'm terrified by spiders. I tried to get it out unblemished, but I don't think it quite worked ó_ò. I didn't know how. It dropped down the drain and I didn't know how to help myself but to send loads of water after it... Now I'm feeling bad. Not that I think it helped. It probably saved itself somewhere and'll come crawling out again... *shudder* I put the plug in. Hope it leaves. *cries* I hate spiders!!!

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I can't believe that my taking a sleeping pill actually fails because of my inability to open the damned box!!! *cusses* Open, vile thing!!! *gnaws at it* Give up!!!! *tears with teeth*

Ah, there! Good! *pops two pills and drains it down with a gulp of whiskey* Yeah... now I feel like a rockstar. Toodle loo, dahlings...

Voila!

Changed my journal smilies. Yup yup.

*snores*

What a fucked up day...

Is it possible that ever good thing happening to you has a downside? It sure is! Grrrr...

Had to go to work today. Oh, that's the downside already! Anyway, the cool part was that my boss had to leave reeeeeeal early and I could basically do as I please. So I did the work I was told in a rather slapdash way to waste the rest of my time in a delicious manner. I surfed the net in superduper highspeed and, most importantly, took advantage of the postersized printer to print out a couple of my drawings. That's cool. The downside, however, is that the printer must have run out of blue ink or so and thus the poster looks weirdly green tinged now. :-/

Anyway, I got to leave earlier, of course. Which meant I'd have time in abundance to write. Or so I thought. Utterly uninspired here. *sniffs*

Did some minor repair at the house which sorta makes me feel cool and independent. Repaired the latch of the mailbox, painted over some ugly parts at the fence and corrected a glitch in the lacquer of Tiny Bronco. Of course, I slipped and added another scratch to the hood. With my fingernails!! Imagine that! *grumbles* Oh, and they cracked, of course. The fingernails, that is.

The new Rammstein album is out. I got it. I'm so excited! But I can't really listen to it, because I've got one killer migraine attack that I just want to crawl under the carpet and decompose. And I'll probably erase all my credit cards in the near future, because the limited edition version closes with a magnet. Hurray...

So, I guess I'll just pop another Aspirin and wait for it to kick in while I'm slowly increasing the caffein level in my blood...

Fuck. That pretty much sums it all up. Just shoot me.

A Poem by Ringelnatz

I like this poem a lot. It expresses all I feel right now...

Und auf einmal steht es neben dir

Und auf einmal merkst du äußerlich:
Wieviel Kummer zu dir kam,
Wieviel Freundschaft leise von dir wich,
Alles Lachen von dir nahm.
Fragst verwundert in die Tage.
Doch die Tage hallen leer.
Dann verkümmert Deine Klage .
Du fragst niemanden mehr.
Lernst es endlich, dich zu fügen,
Von den Sorgen gezähmt.
Willst dich selber nicht belügen
Und erstickst, was dich grämt.
Sinnlos, arm erscheint das Leben dir,
Längst zu lang ausgedehnt. - - -
Und auf einmal - -: Steht es neben dir,
An dich angelehnt - -
Was?
Das, was du so lang ersehnt.

And the translation...

And suddenly it's standing next to you

And all of a sudden you realize
How much sorrow came to you
How much friendship has vanished, unnoticed,
Took all the laughter away from you.
Puzzled you ask some day.
But every day just echoes back emptily.
Then your lament dies away...
You don't ask anybody anymore.
You finally learn to accept it,
the sorrows have tamed you.
You want to stop lying to yourself
And stifle what's been troubling you.
Senseless, poor, life appears to you,
already taking far too long. - - -
And suddenly - -: It's standing next to you,
leaning against you - -
What?
That you've been craving for so long.