I'm miffed.

Everybody hates gay women. When you're a gay guy, people are supportive. They know how you feel and it's trendy to be tolerant and understanding. After all, as a gay guy you're kinda cute and you've got a great taste and are a cool friend.

But when you're a lesbo, then you're sick and ugly and you dress like shit and have a short bull dyke hair cut, you hate men and drink and smoke and crap...

Ah fuck...

And thing is, I wish I was a gay man. I love my gay male friends. And wish I was one. It's just so much easier...

Sorry... randomness... sad, frustrated...

I want my former friend to talk to me again. How can she just forget about me. Why doesn't she talk to me again????? Why does she have to come up with a WIP idea, too? I want to quit writing altogether. It's too much pain. I should just unsub of all my lists and get on with life. I'm obviously a failure. I can't write anything worth a shit and I'm way too dependant of my moods. I'm wasting my life. That's what I'm doing. Everybody's better than me.

I'm tired of my lists, of the people on it, of friends who leave, of people who don't understand... just tired... so tired...