Mar. 22nd, 2001

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I'm not in a good mood right now. Weird, really. It just started without me noticing it. It's not really time to feel like that. I just suddenly caught myself thinking if I have any stuff in my house that's poisonous. That's scary. I was thinking how sharp those knives in the kitchen are. Couldn't stop thinking about it. But then again... I find myself unable to cut myself lately. But instead I'm thinking of death. Too weird.

So I got my box. My secret box... just to look at it. And it scared me once more. How prepared I am. Needles to take blood from my veins... razor blades... antiseptics... band-aids... thin tubes so I can keep the blood flowing instead of having to pull out the needle at once again... a pack of cigarettes for later... isn't this scary? I wonder when I'll start keeping a box with other stuff. Sheesh...

I'm shaking, but I'm strong. But cold, so cold... I'm smoking the cigarette instead but I'm empty and spent anyhow...
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I'M SO AAAAAAAAAAAAAAANGRY!!!!!!! I want to break something!!!!!!!

AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH!!!!!!!!!!

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