Last Night I Had the Strangest Dreams, Take 2

I've had weird dreams again! I dreamt that our house was haunted, but it didn't look like our house at all! The ghosts would suddenly move doors and so on and it was deadly dangerous to come in physical contact with with ghosts. I was sitting on the roof one evening (!!!) when I noticed this green-blueish vortex in the garden. I went to the edge of the roof and looked when suddenly a tentacle lashed out of the vortex and grabbed my feet. I was pulled into the vortex. Inside, I realized that my bro was in there already, too. We were spit out of the vortext again and covered with green-blue gooey stuff all over. But we could shrug it off. Our bodies were now made of this material and it obeyed our thoughts, we could take on every form we wanted to, even change our clothes and everything!

Too weird... I forget the rest, but I know we were flying through the sky and did whatever we pleased! hahahah

As I said... strangest dreams.

help...

I'm at work right now and feeling terrible... I wish I could talk to someone. It's the first time that a depression hits me amidst of people... I can't stop crying and I fear people will see me... I'm such a freak. I'm feeling so bad, I just want to go home and curl up in bed, but I can't because I have to work... terrible...

Gonna get my hair done! *_*

Yeah! In an hour, my mom's friend will come over to do my hair! I'll get streaks which will be blonde first, but then I'll put my usual hairdye on it right away and I'll get the most vivid, most brilliant orange than ever! And on Friday I'll go see my favorite hairdresser to get my mop into shape again. The hair's touching the nape of my neck already, I need to cut it again! hahaha

Last night I amused myself in front of the mirror, combed the hair all on one side and the let it fall into the face, used a bit of gel and voilà! I looked like Trowa! hahahaha. Then I combed it all back and slicked it to my head with water, twisted the hair at my neck and then I looked like some sophisticated lady! hahaha. Cool stuff you can do with your hair. ^_^

One day I'll dye it green, just you wait.

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My dahling is talking to me again. Even better, she called and apologized for being such a jerk *_*. I was very touched. What a wonderful creature she is ^_^. We talked for a long while, like it's supposed to be. I can't wait for her to come and see me this summer. It's gonna be the best 2 months of my life.

A Place to Call Home...

Hm, what to do... I could now wait for 9ug to get their crap done and enable pop-up banners, but I'm quite sure I'll only be annoyed then, because how I know them, they'll probably have one pop-up banner each for every page and in my frame sets this'll mean that I get 5 pop-ups each! Unbareable! Plus, they'll probably have these nasty banners that call themselves "Free Video" and don't ask me how and why, but they are exe-files! I noticed that when I had Download Accelerator accidentally open! That's outrageous and potentially dangerous for the people's systems! `_´ And they take ages to load, too. *hmpf*

9ug wasn't the coolest. They don't support my java scripts sometimes and are unstable. I don't know... many contras actually, no?

Maybe Ishould consider getting an account at Slashcity after all. They don't give me a hard time for having slash on my site, which is pornographic for most other sites (grrrrr) and they charge 7$ for 50 megs per month. Not sure if that's a good deal or not... *sighs*

I have to take action soon. I'll lose all my visitors!! So far, I have an average of 39 visitors a day which is awesome and I have no clue how I deserve that. And I'd like to keep that, too! ´_`:

Ah... what's a poor girl to do... I'm uncertain about the bandwidth thing. with let's say 40 visitors a day and a site that's ca. 15 megs so far (but there's one MP3 on it that I'll get rid of, so let's say 10 megs), how much bandwidth does that produce? Well, most of the megs are picture galleries and I doubt that every single visitor looks at every single picci, so I guess they just check out the html-files which can't be more than 1 meg on the whole.... ack... I have no clue.

Dahlings, I look fabulous!

I just love the color of my hair right now. So vivid and sparkling. So FIERY! Just like I described a character's hair once in my novel "The sun hit her hair and turned it into a sizzling pot of fire." That's how I look now. The streaks were a gooooooood idea. *_*

Mary Sue! Mary Sue!!! Mary Sue!!!!!!

It's just frustrating! So I'm developing this new Harry Potter series that I want to write and whereas I feel like doubting this idea and my own skills several times a day, I mostly think it's a really good idea. It's carefully thought and sketched out, with background and everything.

I've been writing fanfiction for 3 years now and I have never ever written a Mary Sue. Not ever. People say that inexperienced writers write Mary Sues because they can't come up with anything better. I heartily agree. I hate Mary Sues with a passion. I've promised myself never to write a Mary Sue.

Now, there's this story idea and for once in my life I was thinking about putting an original character in. I've never done that before and this time it would actually make sense. But I just know that people will think that it's a Mary Sue. But it's not! It's a he and he's nothing at all like me, nor do I wish I was him!!

It's troublesome. I have no experience with HP het fics that are apparently the source of most self-insertions and Mary Sues. I never read that stuff, so I can't tell what people don't want to read about. I've read through the HP Mary Sue Litmus test and I score pretty okay, but there are some facts that I know are a MS-nono that sorta accord with my character. But they are not meant like that! Thing is, the character I plan to pair him up with just has no suitable partner in the universe I created around him and the reason I'm going to kill him off later on is just to bring it all back to canon again! Is that bad? Is that a Mary Sue then?

I am very confused now. Meimi said that he won't be a Mary Sue if he's interesting and people like him. Thia, however, my treasured beta and brainstormer, said - or at least I think she did - that my OC would have to be flat and insignificant to prevent the MS-ness.!

How now brown cow? I'm absolutely confused. I don't want a MS, I don't want people to think it was one and I don't want to do what everybody does. Argh! I wish somebody could help me out! The whole confusion makes me want to can the whole crap right away, take out the OC completely. But then, it's pointless. The whole story. Thus, I can dump the idea with it....

*sniffle*

I wish someone would tell me if it's okay or not...

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*whine*whine*whine*

wah-wah-wah...

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Can you tell I'm bored? Must - Write - Now.