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What does it mean... to contemplate suicide. I wonder... does it mean to think about it? To ponder it? To seriously consider it? So...am I contemplating suicide? I'm thinking about it a lot. Just... well, thinking. Not really considering it. I wouldn't do that. I guess. I just think death would be nice. A comforting sleep. Yes...

I'm tired... very tired. To die... to sleep, perchance to dream...! Aye, there's the rub. For in that sleep of death, what dreams may come...? How true that is...

I mailed a therapist today. Let's see. Maybe he'll get back to me and I can get help at last... So tired...

I can't seem to remember the happy days lately. That's a weird feeling.

Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine...