I don't know what to do...

[silversolitaire]

Yesterday I had the last session with my counsellor. Now I'm all out of free counselling. Now, the only way to continue is to get paid counselling. This means I'll finally have to tell my Dad. I don't know how... And I have to make a commitment. I'm so scared... I just don't know what to do. I've got the address in my pocket here and I know she's got a free slot for me. But I know I won't call... I just know it. I'm so scared... and so worried. And yet I know I need it... I just can't get along myself. Life just sucks big time... I'm going to screw up again... Just screw up...

Apart from that I guess I'm doing fine. I'm starting to get along with my girlfriend. She leaves me lovely notes all over the place. When I shake my pillows to go to sleep, I find a sweet "love you" note, or in my car. All over the place... That's nice. I'm easing up, I guess. Today I had an exam and it went smoothly. The professor was sick and so the substitute came in, put the sheets on the table and said "Just leave them on the desk when you're gone" and left! ^_^ Guess that's another A for me.

Right now, my gf and her sisters are out biking and I got some time on my own. I hoped to talk to some people online, kat and so on, but no one's on. Guess I'll go again...

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You won't screw up unless unless you let yourself. You know what you need! Now go get it. Okay? ^_^ *hugs*