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[silversolitaire]

I just realized that I have my date with the couselor tomorrow... gods... I almost forgot. Somehow I don't want to go... I'm feeling good right now. I don't want to bring it all up again. But when I don't go I'll feel miserably again soon... I still don't know if I want to get into therapy. I couldn't talk to anybody about it. My girlfriend thinks I shouldn't... she says I only need a change of scene. But it's my head following me everywhere? How will that change anything?

I just don't know what to do... I don't want to be tied to one place for so long. I don't want to be an offical nutcase... I'm thinking... maybe I can do it alone?

Ah, decisions....