Life sucks...
Apr. 30th, 2001 05:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
silversolitaireI'm hot, bothered and depressed... life sucks. Big time. I just wanted to draw for a bit, but it won't work. Fuck. All I want is a half-decent picture of Jyou, but do you think it's possible to get such a thing in the whole world wide net??? The best I found was so tiny that it was an insult for the eyes. Ah, fuck it all.
I was feeling self-destructive yesterday. Still do. I tucked myself into bed for an hour, shaking and shivering, my fingers itching to do something. Just... something. The feeling of uselessness won't go away. What to do now? Close friends are starting to make me feel dispensable. It's like a sponge that sucks up everything that ever was beautiful in my life. I'll have to start avoiding my friends now, if this doesn't stop. I can't deal with this anymore...
I was feeling self-destructive yesterday. Still do. I tucked myself into bed for an hour, shaking and shivering, my fingers itching to do something. Just... something. The feeling of uselessness won't go away. What to do now? Close friends are starting to make me feel dispensable. It's like a sponge that sucks up everything that ever was beautiful in my life. I'll have to start avoiding my friends now, if this doesn't stop. I can't deal with this anymore...
