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silversolitaireA quote by Daria comes to mind:
"I don't have low self-esteem. I have low esteem for everyone else."
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just overly cynical about people or if the world is just a rotten place. Whatever it is, I'm usually right. And sometimes it scares me. Last week, a friend complained that all his game systems were stolen from his friends' place by an guy who wanted to get back to them by breaking in and stealing all valuables and pawning them off. By the time they noticed they could only get the guy's computer back. All his systems were gone, including burnt CDs, memory packs, games etc. The moment I heard this story I was suspicious. Everything smelled rotten about it and I expressed my doubts, but very carefully of course, not wanting to actually imply his friends would cheat him like that. However, I suggested he should keep his eyes open and perhaps inquire at the pawn shop. Now, a week later, I hear that I was actually right. His "friends" just pawned all his stuff. And when he confronted them with it they actually said it was his fault since he didn't give them enough money when he was visiting and if he ever calls again they'll press charges against him for harrassment. >_<
So, I could say now I hate being right. In this case, I do. Sometimes it seems as if I have the eerie talent of telling when people are lying or doing bad things. I can always tell when dad is lying or just called his girlfriend. I can read my brother like a book. I always know people are lying. I often ask myself if I'm just a cynic. If I'm just automatically assuming people are deceiving. But then I see once more that I'm right and I just get more cynic. Same with my bro. I ask myself every time if I'm not just too ready to assume the worst of him and then he turns around and proves me right. How I hate it sometimes.
So, am I just a cynic or is everyone just a bunch of scumbags? I wonder...
"I don't have low self-esteem. I have low esteem for everyone else."
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just overly cynical about people or if the world is just a rotten place. Whatever it is, I'm usually right. And sometimes it scares me. Last week, a friend complained that all his game systems were stolen from his friends' place by an guy who wanted to get back to them by breaking in and stealing all valuables and pawning them off. By the time they noticed they could only get the guy's computer back. All his systems were gone, including burnt CDs, memory packs, games etc. The moment I heard this story I was suspicious. Everything smelled rotten about it and I expressed my doubts, but very carefully of course, not wanting to actually imply his friends would cheat him like that. However, I suggested he should keep his eyes open and perhaps inquire at the pawn shop. Now, a week later, I hear that I was actually right. His "friends" just pawned all his stuff. And when he confronted them with it they actually said it was his fault since he didn't give them enough money when he was visiting and if he ever calls again they'll press charges against him for harrassment. >_<
So, I could say now I hate being right. In this case, I do. Sometimes it seems as if I have the eerie talent of telling when people are lying or doing bad things. I can always tell when dad is lying or just called his girlfriend. I can read my brother like a book. I always know people are lying. I often ask myself if I'm just a cynic. If I'm just automatically assuming people are deceiving. But then I see once more that I'm right and I just get more cynic. Same with my bro. I ask myself every time if I'm not just too ready to assume the worst of him and then he turns around and proves me right. How I hate it sometimes.
So, am I just a cynic or is everyone just a bunch of scumbags? I wonder...
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Date: 2003-05-09 08:54 pm (UTC)I'm the same as you =( It's not like we're arrogant or Miss I-Told-You-Sos or anything, it's just that we tend to get the right feelings about things. And when we tell other people what we think, people just scoff & brush it off. But in the end, when the truth surfaces, we don't actually say anything like "I told you so!", but people just feel that we did =( It's very hard being right all the time - people can just start hating you for reasons they can't explain!
You're not a cynic; but I think it's a higher level of intuition or perspective... Just be proud of it, and try & apply it in such a way that would make you feel happier that you were blessed with that ability ^_^
(Wow... This is so cheesy T_T)
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Date: 2003-05-10 02:57 am (UTC)hehe.. why not both, actually? *g*
but no. you see, if you really have such a feel for lies and deception, don't hate it, for god's sake! i mean, i doubt there's anything more valuable than truth..
or would you rather be a gullible jerkass?
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Date: 2003-05-10 03:07 am (UTC)Secondly: *Hugs*
Thirdly: don' tell me your no-good dad has gotten back with his girlfriend... I think you should buy your mom a spine for Christmas.
Fourthly: Maybe you're just an empath?
Fiftly: Don't become cynical, please, please don't. There are so many bright things in the world. Remember what Aristotle said: virtue is the state between two opposite extremes. So the virtious quality is the one between being naive and being cynical.
Sixthly: *Hugs*
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Date: 2003-05-10 03:42 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-05-10 04:20 am (UTC)i'll just wander off and thwack my head against a wall for a bit.
*smooches*
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Date: 2003-05-10 04:58 am (UTC)Re:
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Date: 2003-05-10 04:59 am (UTC)Point taken! ^_^; You're right. I guess it's better this way. However, I can also be extremely gullible when it comes to people pulling my leg. I always fall for it, isn't that strange? *g* I guess if people don't have any malicious intent I just can't spot it!
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Date: 2003-05-10 05:00 am (UTC)Re: [I just _HAD_ to say this....]
Date: 2003-05-10 05:31 am (UTC)And I'm glad you know what I'm talking about. The urge to say "Told you so" is too strong sometimes, but then it only makes the people mad! ^_^;;;
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Date: 2003-05-10 06:14 am (UTC)but in those cases it's some phony staged situation for simply entertainment reason (the entertainment in it i often fail to recognize, though.. like, i despise those "hidden camera" things when they make idiots out of people.. it just nauseates me and makes me switch channels pronto), and yes, it is somehow difficult to relate to.
hehe.. i seem to have grown to a point when "believe none of what you hear and only half of what you see" is my modus operandi, and i take every information with a grain of salt..
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Date: 2003-05-10 07:15 am (UTC)hehe.. i seem to have grown to a point when "believe none of what you hear and only half of what you see" is my modus operandi, and i take every information with a grain of salt..
Oh, me too, definitely. And if I hadn't done that before already I would have started after all this war coverage that was so incredibly twisted that it was no longer funny. Now I tend to take most news I read or hear as a pointer towards reality, but I always assume it's not as bad or not as simple as they claim it to be.