The coldness of friends...

[silversolitaire]

I don't think I'll ever understand these feelings of mine. When friends write to me and suddenly I feel all cold and rejected. It's not their fault, I'm sure, but still they make me freeze. When they are rushed and didn't take the time, I sometimes just feel the absence of caring and then I get so sad...

I hope I'm not like that. I'm really trying to be a caring person and I hope I sound nice when I talk to people. I really do...

There's one thing I'll never understand. How can friends just leave? How can someone want to become your friend, make you like them and then leave? That's painful. I love meeting new people and whereas I might not have the time to write them as much as I'd like to, I still appreciate their interest. And all the same it hurts me when it suddenly goes away. Makes me wonder, what have I done to become so shallow and boring all of a sudden...