Nostalgia... and on Joshua Kadison
Jan. 23rd, 2003 02:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
silversolitaireYes, I realize I've been spamming LJ for the past hour with mushy lyrics, but hey, I've just rummaged around my lyrics collection and just thought I share one or two. And then, what happens? I switch on the TV and see the Aerosmith video "Crying". God, the memories... I was at my peak then, a teenager, fully emerged in the wonders that are MTV and chart music. I remember all those videos from the album "Get a Grip". They all rocked, dude. Like Crying, Amazing, . With Alicia Silverstone and Liv Tyler! Way back when nobody knew them! XD
*sighs*
I've always liked videos like that... Videos that tell an actual story. And songs which lyrics convey that. That's why I always loved Aerosmith and Joshua Kadison. They're very good at that. Awesome videos where the lyrics and / or the video tell a story are (among others):
*curls up and sighs happily* Ah, the memories. Now I realize how much I miss Joshua. I mean, I miss him. As silly as it may sound, he's been such a big big part of my life for such a long time. I've always adored his music, ever since they first came out. And I listened to the songs all night, imagining the most wonderful stories around them. Joshua made me draw, he made me write, he made me feel spiritual and wonderful and mystic... he was one of the first people I sought out on the internet... I wrote him a letter, but I never sent it. I thought he was such an amazing person. Everything he said made so much sense, was so profound and full of wisdom...
I sound so fan-girlish now, but I'm not. Not at all. I was never a squealing fan. I was... an admirer, a passionate dreamer who found happiness and inspiration through Joshua Kadison's songs.
At some point I couldn't listen to his songs anymore, because I was often on the road and in the car his music isn't too good to listen to, since it's always very mellow and soft. And I was more into hard stuff, Papa Roach, Linkin Park, Rammstein... when I was depressed, suicidal and angry. But now... now I miss Joshua. And I feel like he's slipped away from me. I don't know what he's doing anymore. I haven't bothered for so long. He's no longer close to me. But I miss him, dearly. Maybe I can recreate this feeling? *starts looking for the CDs*
Hm... I just realize why I never dared to get into contact with him. Because I always thought I wasn't worth it. I was young, meaningless, my art sucked, my writing did too... I thought that once I contact him I want to show him what he moved inside of me. But I never could, because even though I had the most fantastic images in my head I couldn't transfer them onto paper. And that was horrible. And I was embarrassed to admit that. Now I feel more confident in myself and in my art. And I've lost him...
I think this is why I like Richard so much. I realize just now that he's so very much like Joshua, it's amazing. He's said things that I heard Joshua say before... Oh Lord. I realize it all just now... *cries* It's all a circle, one big circle...
*embraces the memories*
*sighs*
I've always liked videos like that... Videos that tell an actual story. And songs which lyrics convey that. That's why I always loved Aerosmith and Joshua Kadison. They're very good at that. Awesome videos where the lyrics and / or the video tell a story are (among others):
- Janey's Got a Gun
- Amazing
- Crazy
- Crying
- Objects in the Rearview Mirror May Appear Closer Than They Are (okay, Meatloaf, but DUDE, this video / song is amazing... I wrote a long story about it once... Hmm... I wonder where it is...)
- Picture Postcards from LJ
- Jessie (one of the first stories I wrote involved her)
- Georgia Rain
- Delilah Blue
- Jus' Like Brigitte Bardot
- ...actually almost every song Joshua Kadison ever made
*curls up and sighs happily* Ah, the memories. Now I realize how much I miss Joshua. I mean, I miss him. As silly as it may sound, he's been such a big big part of my life for such a long time. I've always adored his music, ever since they first came out. And I listened to the songs all night, imagining the most wonderful stories around them. Joshua made me draw, he made me write, he made me feel spiritual and wonderful and mystic... he was one of the first people I sought out on the internet... I wrote him a letter, but I never sent it. I thought he was such an amazing person. Everything he said made so much sense, was so profound and full of wisdom...
I sound so fan-girlish now, but I'm not. Not at all. I was never a squealing fan. I was... an admirer, a passionate dreamer who found happiness and inspiration through Joshua Kadison's songs.
At some point I couldn't listen to his songs anymore, because I was often on the road and in the car his music isn't too good to listen to, since it's always very mellow and soft. And I was more into hard stuff, Papa Roach, Linkin Park, Rammstein... when I was depressed, suicidal and angry. But now... now I miss Joshua. And I feel like he's slipped away from me. I don't know what he's doing anymore. I haven't bothered for so long. He's no longer close to me. But I miss him, dearly. Maybe I can recreate this feeling? *starts looking for the CDs*
Hm... I just realize why I never dared to get into contact with him. Because I always thought I wasn't worth it. I was young, meaningless, my art sucked, my writing did too... I thought that once I contact him I want to show him what he moved inside of me. But I never could, because even though I had the most fantastic images in my head I couldn't transfer them onto paper. And that was horrible. And I was embarrassed to admit that. Now I feel more confident in myself and in my art. And I've lost him...
I think this is why I like Richard so much. I realize just now that he's so very much like Joshua, it's amazing. He's said things that I heard Joshua say before... Oh Lord. I realize it all just now... *cries* It's all a circle, one big circle...
*embraces the memories*
