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Odd... can somebody tell my why quite often people that I removed from my friends list still show up when I check my LJ next time and then I look and realize they're still ON my list? Even though I clearly removed them? Oy vey... I hate it when that happens.

Don't worry, friends, I didn't remove any of you if you can read this. I only removed those that I had friended but who hadn't friended me back and whom I didn't really find that interesting anymore. Just felt like I had to add this since I always get nervous when someone talks about unfriending and all ^.^;.

Ah yes, I am immensely pleased...

For those of you who have talked to me yesterday got to hear about this deplorable incident on the Ragnarok Online Community on LJ. Someone posted a rather naive and silly post where she was all amazed and giddy to find out that the names from Ragnarok were loaned from Norse Mythology. This struck me as so uneducated and ignorant I couldn't help but reply in such a manner. It's like someone blurting out "Dude, did you know that Caesar's Palace refers to the Roman Empire?!?" So, I made a post which was admittedly a little snarky, mostly because I started it with "No offense, but duuuh" and then I stated that this was a pretty obvious fact and added another interesting bit which didn't come from the Norse Mythology. The reply was a rather pissy one, calling me an elitist and bitch which I found semi-amusing since it was riddled with spelling mistakes and basically confirmed what I had thought about this person's level of education.

Anyway, I tried to reply to that to take the edge off the blow a little, since I did realize that I probably shouldn't have been that snarky. Lo and behold, my comment had been deleted -.-. Tom saw that and responded in a very implicative manner to that which totally bounced off that person. Surprise surprise. Things got unpleasant when a user called Kayley got involved who too had sent me a scathing reply where she called me an ass but which she cowardly had deleted herself before anyone could see it. And she started deleting my posts as well (which I first thought was the original poster's work. I only found that out later). Anyway, she called me an asshole and made it look as if I had been totally bashing that "poor girl" for not knowing this, which certainly wasn't the case (those who read my original reply know that). I replied to that pointing out that namecalling isn't exactly a mature way to carry on a conversation and that I don't really consider her a poor girl if all she can do is insult (with typos) and delete posts of criticism. The very bright reply to that was questioning my level of maturity and intelligence merely based on the fact that I used "duuuuh" in my original reply (which was meant to soften the blow, but of course it bounced off). I went to reply again and all my comments had disappeared again, with the exception of the one where I looked like the snarky bitch thanks to Kayley's comments.

I commented again and complained about that but all that ever saw the light was Kayley's reply which was immediately deleted by herself again where she told me that she's been deleting all my comments and she may not be a moderator of the community but used to be and still has the powers until she'll be returning to that position. I found that pretty fascist and wanted to express that in my next comment and had intended to keep posting that until she got tired of censoring and falsifying the posts. But lo and behold, I found myself banned from posting! For using "duuuh" in a post (in front of a "no offense") and refusing to be presented as a snarky, poor girl bashing bitch.

Of course, Kayley thought that her waving around her immense powers in front of my eyes would impress me. Wrong. I mailed the owner of the community and filed an official complaint against her. Having a strong sense of justice I took full responsibility for my snarkiness, but pointed out that this alone shouldn't be a reason to get banned from a community. I pointed out that if he was a just community owner he won't let his moderators run wild in such an arbitrary manner. Mailing that alone made me feel a lot better.

Now I got a reply where the owner apologized for everything that had been done to me, informing me that Kayley had left the moderation team long ago and wasn't even supposed to have these powers anymore and won't be returning either. He unbanned me (and Tom too who had been struck by her wrath too apparently even though he really did nothing -.-) and wished me a pleasant stay in the community.

I'm immensely pleased. Not only is the community the nice and pleasant place I thought it would be, run by a friendly and reasonable person, but I also have the proof that I had been wronged. Usually it's not like me to make such things public, but I think everyone should know that you shouldn't put up with fascist mini-mes who know how to operate a delete button. That's all I really want to say.

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NaNo drivel

Is anyone else being spammed by the NaNo Newsletter? >_<;

I can't believe NaNo has started. Furthermore I can't believe that I'm signed up. And no, I'm not going to make a big deal out of it, saying that I must be insane to do it and that it's oh so special to be on NaNo, because it really isn't. I did it last year too and I know it was extremely strenuous. Part of me didn't want to go through this again. Still doesn't. It's a lot of work. But it's not really that special. And somehow I'm starting to lose interest since it's starting to become a fad and somehow this annoys me. Okay, I shouldn't sound this bitter. I'm not really.

Anyone who's decided to do NaNo this year, you're brave heroes, no doubt. But I still don't think it's such a big deal. Maybe I just lost my ability to get excited somewhere along the way. I wish all of you who're trying it this month a good time.

And I still don't know if I should. I haven't been able to write nicely for over a month. It's a little depressing, to say the least. So there's a chance that NaNo will make me feel great and victorious again, will show me what I can do. On the other hand, I'm really shying away from all the work x_x. And I'm afraid to waste a good potential. Because right now I only have one idea that's thought out enough to make it into a novel. But it's a special idea and I don't want to waste it. Last year, NaNo has become such a pain in the ass near the end that I just started loathing that thing I was writing, churning out page after page, never wanting to see it again. I still haven't read what I've written last year and I have no desire to do so. I feel like I killed it. What did I do wrong? I don't know, but I don't want this to happen with my "good book".

On the other hand, I do could use a good challenge again. My life has been far too easy-going lately. Well, not that it was all butterflies and rainbows but it's just kinda... moving on.

Also, it's occured to me that this is the third year that I'm actively taking notice of NaNo, having heard aboutit for the first time from kkscatnip. I still remember when the site's layout was this cheesy scrawley sketch of something that looked like kids... Interesting. It means I've known Kat for over three years now...? Look at the time...

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http://www.cutlass.org/

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