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Do you ever feel like this? As if your mind no longer belongs to you, but rather something else that you can't define. You feel drunk, in a way, or intensely focused, nothing else matters but that little cursor on the computer screen moving... moving, forming words, sentences, paragraphs, pages... I wish this feeling wasn't so fragile, easily smashed at the slightest indication of sound. I wish I was more brilliant than that, more of a writer, an artist. Distraction is your worse enemy.

-.-;;;

How DUMB can be you? To be my brother, that is. Here I am, sitting on the computer, looking positively busy, headphones on, listening to loud music so I won't be bothered by the TV show he insists on watching. Or rather the TV he insists on running even though he certainly isn't interested in the show and just wants to noise in the background. Me, I'm annoyed by that. So I put on headphones to have my peace. And what does he do??? He CONSTANTLY talks to me. Like, all the fucking time! He comments on the TV, and not just like "Blablablabl", no, he actually turns around and looks at me, expecting an answer. Every time I practically yank down the headphones and yell "WHAT!" and he just chats at me happily, a comment that makes zero sense to me since I haven't paid attention to the program to begin with. And will he stop? NO! He'll do it again and again and again! Until I get really pissed and tell him I'm not paying attention and I don't want to know and then he acts all hurt and says "Never mind then!" >_<

GAH!!!