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Hello all! Still alive. Knee getting better, but it still hurts. Made a kick-ass Legolas wallpaper and decided to share it with the group.
Today was very weird. My mom's been grumpy all day. We went out to have Chinese food. As always, my mom said she wouldn't eat anything, just try a bit from ours. I hate that! I mean, usually I never manage to finish my dish, but it sucks how she never has her own food. Especially pizza. I NEVER share my pizza. Even though I don't finish it, I always save it for later! Grrrrrr... You could tell my dad was really disappointed. He likes going out for lunch and he hates it how my mom always acts like you were doing her terribly wrong by taking her out.
Well, so we all were grumpy all day. Then, at dinner, it finally erupted. She acted once more like she wasn't going to eat anything. Then granny wanted to force my bro into having one more piece of toast even though he didn't want to. Then Mom kept asking, "Do you want it? Do you want it? I mean, I will eat it then, but it'll be SO disgusting..." It annoyed the hell out of me, so I told her "Just leave the damn shit! It's not like it HAS to be eaten now!" Then she freaked out, accusing us of not wanting her to have nice food. She yelled at us and we yelled at her and she locked herself in the bathroom only to return later on to dump the toast in the ashtray. That annoyed me so I was pissed. We then cleared the table and I was grumpy like hell. She of course used the situation to accuse us of never helping her, yadda-yadda. It was annoying like hell.
When my mom finally left, my bro suddenly broke out in tears! I haven't seen him cry for years! And never like this! I asked him what's wrong and he said he was so shocked about his own thoughts. That he'd been thinking how he could have spent a great New Year's Eve with his friends and wasted it with this. I told him I'd been thinking the exact thing.
I then sent my dad away to sort things out with mom. I was kinda angry with him, thinking it was his fault, that he probably did something that made mom sad or so. But he swore he didn't! Well... they left and I spent some time with my bro. Then the parents returned and we spent some "quality time", playing a game and stuff.
I think the family is falling apart. I don't know why I keep on spending holidays with them. But when I'm not with them I always regret it. Like last year. I wanted to be with my gf of course, but I was missing my parents. But now... it seriously made me think that I won't be here again next year.
It's sad. So sad....
Today was very weird. My mom's been grumpy all day. We went out to have Chinese food. As always, my mom said she wouldn't eat anything, just try a bit from ours. I hate that! I mean, usually I never manage to finish my dish, but it sucks how she never has her own food. Especially pizza. I NEVER share my pizza. Even though I don't finish it, I always save it for later! Grrrrrr... You could tell my dad was really disappointed. He likes going out for lunch and he hates it how my mom always acts like you were doing her terribly wrong by taking her out.
Well, so we all were grumpy all day. Then, at dinner, it finally erupted. She acted once more like she wasn't going to eat anything. Then granny wanted to force my bro into having one more piece of toast even though he didn't want to. Then Mom kept asking, "Do you want it? Do you want it? I mean, I will eat it then, but it'll be SO disgusting..." It annoyed the hell out of me, so I told her "Just leave the damn shit! It's not like it HAS to be eaten now!" Then she freaked out, accusing us of not wanting her to have nice food. She yelled at us and we yelled at her and she locked herself in the bathroom only to return later on to dump the toast in the ashtray. That annoyed me so I was pissed. We then cleared the table and I was grumpy like hell. She of course used the situation to accuse us of never helping her, yadda-yadda. It was annoying like hell.
When my mom finally left, my bro suddenly broke out in tears! I haven't seen him cry for years! And never like this! I asked him what's wrong and he said he was so shocked about his own thoughts. That he'd been thinking how he could have spent a great New Year's Eve with his friends and wasted it with this. I told him I'd been thinking the exact thing.
I then sent my dad away to sort things out with mom. I was kinda angry with him, thinking it was his fault, that he probably did something that made mom sad or so. But he swore he didn't! Well... they left and I spent some time with my bro. Then the parents returned and we spent some "quality time", playing a game and stuff.
I think the family is falling apart. I don't know why I keep on spending holidays with them. But when I'm not with them I always regret it. Like last year. I wanted to be with my gf of course, but I was missing my parents. But now... it seriously made me think that I won't be here again next year.
It's sad. So sad....
