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Oct. 22nd, 2001
"Good morning"
Oct. 22nd, 2001 12:37 pmWell I know it's not morning... but... anyway. My head hurts. That's about all of the accomplishments of this day that I can think of...
Trying to collect as much of Trigun and Cowboy Bebop as I can, so I can do this anime trade. I was checking some of the Bebop episodes right now. Two just don't have a sound. I wonder if it's DivX or something. I wish I could tell... the Mediaplayer starts dowenloading something and then there's no sound. grrrrrrr... The other ones were okay. Bleh. There was this disgusting crunching sound. I clicked right into a fight scene. I hate these kinda of sounds. Now I have a strange taste in my mouth >_<.
Trying to collect as much of Trigun and Cowboy Bebop as I can, so I can do this anime trade. I was checking some of the Bebop episodes right now. Two just don't have a sound. I wonder if it's DivX or something. I wish I could tell... the Mediaplayer starts dowenloading something and then there's no sound. grrrrrrr... The other ones were okay. Bleh. There was this disgusting crunching sound. I clicked right into a fight scene. I hate these kinda of sounds. Now I have a strange taste in my mouth >_<.
*pats her full tummy*
Oct. 22nd, 2001 07:46 pmMmmmh, I just made myself some nice semolina pudding. I was out of sugar so I used this vanilla drink mix I had and it was very delicious! I'm full now... but I feel a craving for something salty now! hahahha, it's always the same. Maybe I'll have some mixed pickles or feta cheese later.
And no, I'm not pregant! hahahaha
Random thought: I don't like Bulma.
And no, I'm not pregant! hahahaha
Random thought: I don't like Bulma.
New class.
Oct. 22nd, 2001 08:05 pmJust came back from my American lit class. I missed the first session last week! How embarrassing! I thought they were starting today! T_T Anyway, the class appears to be very entertaining! "Genealogy and generation in American Drama". I had chosen it because the texts in the reader made assume that the prof was a gender studies person. Lots of Tennessee Williams, Harvey Fierstein and other gay writers. And it turned out I was right!
Hahahha, first I didn't even recognize the lecturer! There was this slender guy, definitely under 30, with a red shirt and a shiny grey star on it, tight pants, hair gelled back in spikes, two earrings, very queeny behavior. It turns out this was the lecturer! *laughs*
I immediately liked him. We talked about Sedgewick-Kosowski and gender studies and queer theory before the class. Later, when he was in lecture-mode, he had a HUGE output. Oh my... he used so many terms that I had heard before but not really ever bothered to look up! Gotta change that! T_T
But... this is going to be fun! Oh yes! ^_^ When I picked my topic for the paper, he warned me that I had picked a huge book, but then he said that I'd probably love it since it was full of gay history. Yay! Now I only need to order a copy. Forgot the title... Hm. Gotta look it up in a moment.
Hahahha, first I didn't even recognize the lecturer! There was this slender guy, definitely under 30, with a red shirt and a shiny grey star on it, tight pants, hair gelled back in spikes, two earrings, very queeny behavior. It turns out this was the lecturer! *laughs*
I immediately liked him. We talked about Sedgewick-Kosowski and gender studies and queer theory before the class. Later, when he was in lecture-mode, he had a HUGE output. Oh my... he used so many terms that I had heard before but not really ever bothered to look up! Gotta change that! T_T
But... this is going to be fun! Oh yes! ^_^ When I picked my topic for the paper, he warned me that I had picked a huge book, but then he said that I'd probably love it since it was full of gay history. Yay! Now I only need to order a copy. Forgot the title... Hm. Gotta look it up in a moment.
Thoughts on depression
Oct. 22nd, 2001 08:13 pmThere's something I realized about my form of depression. When I'm depressed, I care too much. I react differently on things that I normally wouldn't give a toss about. I find comments hurtful that I'd usually just brush off, things like finding something that I just bought cheaper somewhere else makes me cry, people's mere presence can make me really, really angry. It's weird... And I seem to have no way of controlling it. Sometimes it's scary.
And I always get very clingy. Yesterday, I wanted to hug someone all day. Anyone! I was missing it so much. I took a bath and hugged myself because I didn't know whom else to hug. Later I gave my dad a very short hug. But I still don't feel overtly affectionate towards him... I wish things weren't the way they are... ah well. And I wish I wasn't the person I am. I never wanted to be like that...
And I always get very clingy. Yesterday, I wanted to hug someone all day. Anyone! I was missing it so much. I took a bath and hugged myself because I didn't know whom else to hug. Later I gave my dad a very short hug. But I still don't feel overtly affectionate towards him... I wish things weren't the way they are... ah well. And I wish I wasn't the person I am. I never wanted to be like that...
