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Would you believe how many versions of "Bizarre Love Triangle" there are? I've got Erasure, and Petshop Boys (although this sounds suspiciously like the Erasure version!) and New Order and Commercial Breakup.. but none of them is the one I want! Ack!

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hurt...

Tomorrow...

My LJ will be 1 year old! I hope I won't oversleep, so I can post at the exact same moment!

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Maybe I should just get stinking drunk. Life sucks...

Everything's dead and I'm alive.

This sucks.

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I'm officially giving up. I will no longer try. I am tired of it. I'm tired of getting hurt, I'm tired of getting my hopes up and being crushed again. I'm tired of feeling worthless and not enough. I was fine this evening when I was online, talking to my friends, writing a bit. Now I'm depressed, sad and hurt. I don't want this anymore. I'm done with it. I'm giving up. If it's too much to ask to understand that, well then... whatever.

So long.

quote!

From the_obsession's LJ:

Quoting Woodstock (Peanuts): "||||||| ||||||| ||||| || |||||||||||"

*chuckle* And I say...
"So poetic and full of meaning... it conveys everything I've ever felt and explains the meaning of life and the reason of our existence with a startling simplicity and yet without sounding corny! This... is the definite wisdom, so serene and yet powerful. Wow..."

Urks...

I've got a hang-over I think... *bleh*

You there, don't click your mouse so loud. You're giving me a headache...

Jen?

What does "Freedom, for everyone, always" been in Latin?

Liberitas... semper... I don't know "for everyone"! heh...

*cries*

My dad came home and I told him my woe with my arm. He checked it out (he's a doctor and said it's... I forgot the whole term. But it's an inflamation of the ends of the muscle, near my elbow. It's hell... hurts so much. He says I have to avoid moving it much now (d'uuuuh) and I need electro-therapy on it. If it doesn't get any better, I need shots right into the muscle.

*cries* Don't wanna...

Typing hurts.... I can't type with my left hand only. But I don't want to stop. I'd feel mute. But it hurts so much... ack...

This sucks...

And I can't believe it's Friday already! o_O

bleh...

Arm won't stop hurting. Need to work on a cover for a magazine and the deadline is Sunday, but I can't even hold a pencil. Coloring it will take me 7 hours. Dammit.

And I want to work on that chapter so I'll be ready tonight for my lovely to continue working on it. *sighs* Typing hurts, too.

I miss my lovely. Things really have improved since we've talked about everything. Of course she still has her jealousy bouts that fuck me up, but most of the time she's trying and then we're having so much fun. We're talking about Weißkreuz und Gundam Wing now! ^_^ Once I got to see the complete series, I'm sure I'll talk with her about it endlessly... hehehe. Can't wait. She promised to send me an Aya/Schuldig video. I'm very curious what that is.

For now, Yami obsession will have to do.

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There's a wasp in the room and it's driving me nuts. Go away!

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I shouldn't be still on the computer and typing. I need to give my arm a rest. I've got pins and needles in it all over... But I can't stop... want to talk.... to people... write story with girlfriend... draw... fuck.. this sucks.

Note for everyone:

FUBAR means

Fucked
Up
Beyond
All
Repair

aka current situation, i.e. my parents' marriage, my future at college, a certain friendship, my arm, my chances to leave this fucking place. You pick.

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Need to give arm rest now... electro therapy now... *sighs*

Soon...

... the moment will arrive...

*_*

Happy Anniversary! ^_^

Ah well, forget it. LJ's system clock is screwed, so I might as well do it now...

As of now, my Livejournal is exactly one year old! *beams*

*opens bottle of champagne*

And in painstaking preparation I managed to achieve that this entry is exactly the 1000th entry! *_*

Look!



Okay, okay... I know, most people will think this hilarious, but hey, I can't update my LJ much when I'm at college and I was missing almost two months of entries while my girlfriend was here. So there! I won't let anyone spoil this for me!

Happy Anniversary to me!

Moulin Rouge cell phone goodies!!!!

*squeal*

How cool! You must help me decide! Unforunately it won't show up correctly, so please click on link below!

( Which cell logo shall I get? )

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Suddenly I'm feeling so sick... I'm such a silly person.

Gods... the anxiety is starting again. I can't breathe. My heart is beating... I'm feeling lonely and everyone's annoying me. I hate it....

help...

I'm cracking up... I'm going crazy... I want to do it again... help... someone... I already have the detergent here.... help...

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my throat burns... I shouldn't have swallowed that... I threw it all up, but it burns... I'm so sick... i need to get a grip. stupid... if I could at least cut... but I said I wouldn't anymore... can't cut... fuck...

I can't cope with stress....