Oh God...

I have disturbed the house again with my constant running around and cleaning up. It's making noises again! And I thought we were beginning to become friends... ó_ò

I had a weird dream last night...

I need to go a bit further back for that. Yesterday, I don't know why, I suddenly felt the urge to see if I could find any info about my dear friend Alex-kun whom I still miss so much. I entered the name of her anime club into Google and low and behold, I actually got a hit. A domain even. Reluctantly, I went to look at it, my heart aching the more I read through the pages. And then I saw her picture and my heart gave a sharp pang. How I missed her... I'm so sad.

And last night I had a weird, weird dream. I dreamt that I read on her page that she had died and it was so terrible! I cried and shook, saying this can't be true. I never got to talk to her again! It's all my fault! I woke up, tears in my eyes.

God, I miss her so much...