Someone explain my feelings to me...

10 mins. ago the world was great, I was so happy, sated after a long session of rping and full of ideas. And now I feel sad and depressed... It's like two mildly depressing things just got together and now I'm endlessly sad. I just saw Meimi's comment on some girl she knew who died and I checked out said girl's LJ out of mere curiosity. And I got so terribly sad at the thought of her being dead. I don't know her at all and here I am, crying as if my best friend had died. But the last entry just touched me. How terrible... to write in your journal, like you always do, maybe a bit depressed, but full of ideas about your life and then, three days later, you're dead! It's not fair! Someone who used smilies and was happy at times and sad at others, just dead...

And then I checked my other Friends entries and saw a comment kat made on our rp. And whereas I'm sure she didn't mean it that way, I feel so bad now. She thought some scene we rped was funny. I asked Cam about it and she said it was a little rushed. Now I feel so bad, because I really liked that scene. I liked it a lot, even. I thought it showed so well how Vince has no power over his own life and how some higher for could demonstrate its existence. I like that, the emotions and everything. I just like it when people almost die and are saved. Always did. And now... now I just hate it and never want to look at again. I feel so silly for liking it, for *writing* it... I've just screwed up...

Oh lalala!

I'm hot!

Silver& Ewan got a 78, Silver&Jonathan even a 98! Woohoo! Now I only need to meet the guys! ^_~

Too bad it's for male and female by default. This sucks a bit. How am I supposed to know whether I have to enter my or Catherine's name in the male slot? Ah, let's put me under male. Catherine is a lot sexier than I am. *presses button* Aha! 93%! Yeah, baby, yeah! *_*

Hurray, hurray!!!!

I'm feeling so much better now. Caught kat this morning and she clarified that she didn't think the scene per se was funny, but the idea that Mikiro, the little Atheist, should be confronted with the existence of God all of a sudden! Weeh! And I was killing myself over it last night! *shakes head* I'm just too sensitive... T_T

I just would like to state that the scene that kat posted in her LJ is not only taken out of context, but also shortened. Thus, is looks even weirder.

So I'm happy again.

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Drew a shitload of pics today! I'm so proud! Now that I finished Chapter 3 of SotD, I'm on Draw Mode again ^_^.

Coloring the Mikiro pic now. I'll be back soon!