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Today I'm tired. As in... really tired. Not just tired of life. Physically tired. I want to sleep. But then, I also want to do stuff. Write emails I owe a couple of people. Write... just something. But I know I won't. Maybe I should just get drunk. Yeah... that would be nice. But alcohol doesn't work with me right now. I'm too sick. I've got frontal sinusitis. The fever won't go away and I've got this constant headache. It's wearing me out. I had to work yesterday and today. Very tiring.

What was I going to say... I forgot. Can't think anything worth a shit right now.

Oh yes, I'm still happily rowing with this person on fanfiction.net. I'm quite certain it's a she and boy is she stupid. She's digging up every corny prejudice on homosexuality there is... *sighs* I'm tired of THAT, too. I won't answer anymore, unless she writes something really revolting. I hate to deal with stupid people. They tire me. I can virtually see the insane glimmer in their eyes and they don't listen to one fucking word I'm saying. Nothing I say can change the way they think. Damn them all, straight to hell and back....

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Oh! Something else! On a brighter note, I got myself the Papa Roach album. Okay, technically, that's not bright, since I bought it for it's gloominess and angriness. I can't seem to stomach sweet and soothing music lately. The hard, brutal sound of drums and guitar, the angry scream of the lead singer, that's what I need. It's soothing my soul to cry out all my hatred and anger into these tunes.

My Dear Friend made me a desktop theme for our future project. I'm feeling very cool about it. I put it on and it's a pleasure looking at it. It's the highway in the setting sun. It looks gorgeous. In the back he put our protagonist, but I don't think he'll keep it there. I love to see Jan as much as I can, but I think it'll be better plain, yes. I'll have to sweet-talk him into making me one just with Jan. I'll come up with a cool quote for him that he can put there. And he has to draw Ryan at last! *_* My sweet Ryan.

"In a time when you can't trust anybody, not even yourself, darkness can be a friend, too."

That's the teaser quote for our story. I like it. I'm so proud I came up with this one. Jan looks so cool, I love the drawings my Dear Friend did of him. I wish I could shout it out to the world! But then... I'm a bit protective about it, too... *giggles*