I'm officially insane...

[silversolitaire]

Went to the counsellor today. I need therapy. Surprise. She said I'm suicidal and she's concerned about me. Of course she said other things, too. It was okay, I guess. I thought it was interesting how she extracted all the necessary information out of me within a matter of minutes. She made me cry and made me strip my soul to the core. I think she'll help... let's see what'll come from it... *sighs*

I just don't know... she said a therapy will tie me a year or two to a certain place. I'm not sure if I can make that at this point of my life... I had planned to go to the USA. Ack... but I can't go on like that. I need help... good Lord. Decisions. How I hate them.

Well, I'll be meeting her again in two week.. oh no... it seems like such a terrible long time...