*cries*

[silversolitaire]

I'm so tired of it. Why do they always blame me for everything? This sucks... and I suck, most of all. Because instead of just standing up for myself and telling them to stop making me the scapegoat for my brother's foul moods I'm crying like a baby. Sometimes I just wish I could disappear... T_T

And now I'm sitting here, crying my eyes out, blaming myself. It's my fault that lunch was a total disaster and I just wanted to sit there afterwards, enjoying a quiet coffee with them. Instead I had to hide in my corner, just because I couldn't bear sitting with them anymore. And it's all my fault...

I wish this would all just stop... it's just too much... And my skin is so sensitive right now that crying really hurts. Every single tear is leaving a burning trace on my cheeks. And I don't mean it figuratively. I wouldn't be surprised if I started reacting allergic to myself...

*curls up*