Note to self

"The mind is like milk. If you keep the mind in the world, which is like water, then the milk and water will get mixed. That is why people keep milk in a quiet place and let it set into curd, and then churn butter from it. Then that butter can easily be kept in the water. The mind will float detached on the water of the world."
- Sri Ramakrishna Paramhansa

"What does God Do? He writes Poetry. What has He written? A single verse the universe."
- Swami Veda Bharati

"The reputation of a thousand years may be determined by the conduct of one hour."
- Japanese Proverb

"All the wonders you seek are within yourself."
- Sir Thomas Browne (1605-1682) Physician and essayist

"Living your life is a task so difficult, it has never been attempted before."

Yup, still the same...

Ah, I love this Religion Selector. It's just so accurate. I've yet to see an instance where it put out a religion that the person taking the test couldn't agree with at all. And I have also seen people find their one true religion through it. So, it's a very good thing.

So, as usual:

According to the SelectSmart.com Belief System Selector, my #1 belief match is Unitarian Universalism. What do you believe? Visit SelectSmart.com/RELIGION

Full results:

1. Unitarian Universalism (100%)
2. Neo-Pagan (92%)
3. Liberal Quakers (90%)
4. New Age (88%)
5. Mahayana Buddhism (83%)
6. Hinduism (82%)
7. Sikhism (80%)
8. Reform Judaism (78%)
9. Mainline - Liberal Christian Protestants (71%)
10. New Thought (71%)
11. Bahá'í Faith (68%)
12. Jainism (66%)
13. Theravada Buddhism (63%)
14. Scientology (60%)
15. Secular Humanism (59%)
16. Taoism (55%)
17. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (52%)
18. Orthodox Judaism (50%)
19. Orthodox Quaker (41%)
20. Islam (38%)
21. Non-theist (28%)
22. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (26%)
23. Seventh Day Adventist (20%)
24. Mainline - Conservative Christian Protestant (20%)
25. Eastern Orthodox (19%)
26. Roman Catholic (19%)
27. Jehovah's Witness (18%)

( Some info on UU )

It amuses me that Roman Catholic is way down there. Then again, I've never been Catholic, so... Heh. it pleases me greatly that I got 100% on the belief I chose years ago. I do believe that being a Unitarian is the right thing for me. But all my life I have been tormented by doubts, wondering if I'm doing the right thing, then telling myself there is no ultimately right thing and whatever is fulfilling to me is the right thing to do. But then I wonder, am I doing it right? And I read and try to improve. I'm working on my spiritual life every day. It makes me happy. Some people think it's uncool or annoying, but I don't care. Reading religious texts, sacred scriptures of different religions, thinking about it, learning from it, I find this all very fulfilling. In my opinion everybody should work on their spiritual life regularily. It's part of being balanced and leveled out.

What I'm lacking is someone to talk to, who fully shares my belief and who can help me find the answers I'm looking for. I wish sometimes I didn't have to find all the answers myself. But then I realize this is how it has to be, no matter how exhausting it is, and then I grit my teeth and try my best to manage.

I'm still debating whether I should officially join the Unitarian congregation near me. But would it be the right thing? Wouldn't it negate all my previous efforts? Will I be set with a belief then? Maybe I'll think then I'm not doing it right, or they'll tell me things I don't agree with. Or I should have faith that they won't. So many questions...